hey it's alright sweetie..

like wad i told u before, i can't promise u forever, neither can i change the past.

in fact no one can..

yes,

it was not right for me to have wanted u to be mine..

not that i've never thought of the day coming and u'll suffer the set back of being labelled a 'backstabber'.

i knew, yet i still went all out for u..

why why why..

i can't explain it..

now that my mistakes have brought me my consequences, i've to accept it.

as the saying goes..a friend in need is a friend indeed.

she needs ur help now, so go along and help her.

whether our one month's pact can make it or not, it's won't matter anymore.

it's still gonna happen sooner or later.

i'm merely saying this with an open mind, i dun beg for sympathy nor forgiveness.

if u know me well enough, i'm someone who detests people with this kind of behaviour.

at this age we dun deserve to be in this kind of situation, we're supposed to live a student's life, so does ur friend.

no one should be deprived of that.

when u had the boyfriend, u were supposed to lose a friend.

but now that u look at it, u've lost 2 friends, not just 1..

wad happened to us at the expense of ur friend's happiness has the words 'morally not right' written all over it.

the key to my heart was always with u, cos i didn't want u be locked up.

instead u could walk in and out as u wish, u've the freedom, so follow ur heart..

but i believe in being optimistic when faced with an obstacle..

for short, it means i dun wanna lose u..

hmmm..we still do have something in common though..

neither did i think we'd come this far..

half a year is no joke, even couples who see each other every single day can break up, wad more for us?

i've enough negative points to make any girlfriend runaway from her boyfriend..

yet u stayed for almost 6 months..

i never once blamed nor intended to blame anyone for my any of my happenings.

in the first place, if it wasn't for ur friend, we wouldn't have met.

she did the hardest job to bring us together, wad more can i ask for..?

i guess that's it..i'll have to end my entry here..this should the longest entry i've ever written..but somehow i just couldn't sleep after u put down on me so i came on to blog..for the past 2 hours i kept thinking and remembering stuffs be it good, bad or even funny..as for our 23 days pact, i'll do my best to fufil it..

we'll put our relationship aside..

whether u treat me as ur boyfriend, friend, godbrother or just a stranger, i still want u to do well in ur exams..

dun just do it for anyone, but also do it for urself.

no one owes u a living, u'll need to stand up on ur own!

C'MON, prove that u're Gina Poa Jie Wei..!

i hope u can do me a favour by keeping me informed about ur naughty little nose whether the doctor says it requires surgery or if it's just a minor problem..and looking back, i seriously miss the times i used to go 405 just to watch u at tkd and irritating haomeili de ivy with u..sigh..

050505` those were the days.......... =))