Monday, September 05, 2005
click to view post: grazed knees

ken sent me 2 nice songs.=)
i couldn;t rmb what i did on fri. perhaps i was idling and watching da chang jin.
i had tkd on sat. before that had tution. did some aerobics and learnt defence.
everyone was gloating at me. when i did my aerobics. fuck.
well my forte lies on kicking the target. hehe.
just then maam alluded that theres gona be demo nx week. if u give me a thousand pence i wun fucking go do it. haha i suck at it.
and dad picked me up and headed to fetch mum.
she was at the other table with her line-dance friends and a guy.
wtf. that guy he look like a bloody gay. lucky mom said his wife was there.
dad looks like hes gona complot a homicide. lol.
we sat at the other table. shared hor fun and iced milo. and left
waited in the car.
he asked me. don't u find mom suspicious?
i was like. had this pent up wrath in me, i was flabbergasted and feeling melancholic.
on the spot. i said. i don't know.
in the car, tuned to 97.6. club hits. dad was dozing off.
i msged rahim and i wept.
darlin was too busy to reply my previous msges, whats more he was at his uncle's house. i didnt wanted to bother him much with my kiddy acts.
am i just thinking much? feeling and acting like a kid. i din noe why i cried. it's really skeptical to see my parents behaving like that.
what if..
they separate?
shd i follow...
dad?
- housing and education not a prob
- food might be a prob

mom
- dishes wiped out everyday.
- attention span is short
-housing might be a prob


argh fuck.
why am i feeling this way?









too apppalled, i thought.i fret more as i looked for my mom. whens she gona leave the god-damn-table and be home with us.
secarastically i msged mom.
" when u gona come. dad's asleep."
her reply:
" kuai hao le.."
( almost done)

ironic shit.

waited for around half an hr. saw 2 ambiguous figs. scrolled down the windows.waved hysterically. put on a compelling smile till i reach home.
god damn it. and i cried in my pillows..




sundae. went to yasmin's god-damn-it big chalet.
i wana book there for holiday next time. (=
the guys bought some snacks and drinks.
oh man i feel like a scrounger. i din paid.
ate and laughed at abdillah's singing and the movie- america( or american's) wedding.
some porno. ken "shoo-ed" a cute gal( yas's cousin) outta. haha. that gal claims that shaman look like taufik. damn cute.
dinner was great. light but tasty. yas's mom simply rocks.
after dinner, we read fhm(me, jamie, ken, shaman, amal)
yas served some milo. ain that gal sweet?
how i wished i could stay over??
anws, dad picked me up from tenah merah. so nice of him
had mom's pizza for supper. splendid!
ps: the pics here next time. i promise

mon:
i didn't catch a wink all night, i supposed.
i am all shagged over,
watched da chang jin
revised history,
darling brought me some to0to0 kuay, octopus and chicken balls and soya bean milk.
kissed him goodbye
he bought me a keychain. that read yongy loves gina.
nice stuff.
it's handmade at the pasar malam.haha i caught it before he did.
single name: 5 bucks
double name: 8 bucks.

had tom yam for dinner, a bar of snickers, 2 octopus balls, a cup of noodles.
fuck i feel like a fat fuck.
haha.
ciao!

darling. happy 4 monthies. thanks for all you did. i love you. i'ma lucky girl (=
palace built on love ♥ 9:39 PM