Monday, September 12, 2005
click to view post: friends for life?

Had practical todae. i don't want to go into details.
Locked up in the hall, i became jamie's councillor.
I really felt that her heart wasn't abit mended. ever since i started with ow yong.
Her love for him is that ever-lasting. from last yr august till now sept. a yr plus.
how could i did this to her? thou ive been guilty ever since jamie's natural smile wasn't there any longer.
she has plastered on a smile which actually her heart denies.
Im a murDERER!


had lunch with her at sumo.
and left for my hse.
laughed and laughed.

Do u believe in things called friends forever?.
i would prolly not.

many atimes, i thought i had a really close gang of friends.
starting from sec 1,
den what happened? the bubble just burst when i was promoted.

i really don't understand. why?
pretty close with wj and mj den suddenly now become like enemies
never hang out with E and XT more than usual.
L? even worse. i rarely sees her in school.
its only either assembly or last time during chinese period.
i miss her so much.
suddenly. ive been thinking,
why the 2 of us have been the best of friends since sec 2.
nicked as the bamboo sisters.
maybe i grew fat thats well the nick was extinct? haha.
yeah.
i really feel sad.
i feel that i dun understand her well enough to be called her best friend.
i am not the early birds to know more happenings around her.
but in my heart, she's really my best friend.

as J favourite phrase.
it's too explicit to be said.


mom always say
there's no such things called friends forever.
yeah look, i proved it.
i betrayed J's trust.
what a friend i have in her.

currently, im observing.
friends who ask me accompany them, i go.
never ask, just leave it.
i shall be alone.

i shouldn't have done it in the first place.

what makes it worse is that.
he's leaving for bangkok.


i need a cry to pour out these pain and guilt.
palace built on love ♥ 6:15 PM