Love

happy 9 months anniversary..=)

2006-02-05T09:45:00.000-08:00

we were the 2 kukus in love..
well, i guess this is gonna be my last entry here..9 long months with her..

gina, dun let the past hold u back in life.. if u do come across someone who can give u wad u always wanted, go with him..
seriously, u have my blessings..
no point crying over spilled milk,
wad's done, is done.
knowing u well and being able to read ur mind for the past 9 months was wad i do best..
other than that, i've got nothing..
i love u, i really do..but i chose to break up and u won't come back to me..
good luck in getting back ur o levels results this week!
take care, my friend...

as dark as the picture seems, so has our hearts become.. (" ,)

"if you really love someone,
set her free.
if she comes back, she's yours.
otherwise, she never was.." - from a poster we both saw at ntuc when i knew she lied..

gong xi fa cai.

2006-01-30T11:45:00.000-08:00

wa lao eh.!
never gib me pineapple tarts..
aiyo gina ah..following my footsteps at work alr..she loves working..
she must be sweating herself off right now all thanks to me..i brought her to work there..she brought her sister..and her sister's ex bf came along for a job too..

i'm lazing around at home.

cos now, the only thing i love about working, is to work with gina bao.
although i wasn't able to work today cos i need to go bai nian again later, i intend to scare her again after work..i went to shangri la, waited for her to finish work and followed her all the way to an eerie walkway.....BOO! almost scared her pants off..cool man..

btw the powerful guest she's talking about is the CEO of citibank..his son was from RI to RJC..and the son's 2 sisters are H-O-T..fillipono chinese..average tanned..the bad thing is, u'll rarely see them..they rather go shopping than come to the pool..almost all hotel expenses, company pay..good life eh?

love gina love? i guess u can work tmr..but it's gonna be back to $6 le..
i so feel like working seh..but i haven finish my hw..
alamak..love drought..no love for me.. =(
i'm going out bai nian soon, gonna get ready..buhbye ppl..

about work!

2006-01-28T01:05:00.000-08:00

Today was eve of chinese new year, i brought mum's pineapple tarts for my colleagues. =)
Naga(boss) loves them and wana buy from my mom. lol. i didn't expected that.
Oh haha there was this guest who asked for 2 deck chairs under shade in the peak period, then two guests who were gg to leave, informed me about it. Lol, the guest forgot his shoes, then i ran after them and asked them, den ran back to get the shoes for them. =)

many caucasians are really nice recently. There's this guest saying that snappy was a fucked-up song, sang by a fucked up crocodile. lol. then he started doing the dance and lamenting how stupid was it to be entered into the top 5 hits. haha.

Got really tortured by guests today. haha, no lah. but today is officially one month work! HOORAY! i manage to stay on with one job, and i love my job!

Anws, i got mixed up with orders today, sent double expresso to a guest who wanted brewed coffee and vice versa, so malu, then i went back to prepare another drink. haha.

so far, so sad to tell that.
i have broken 1 tiger bottle and spilled 2 singapore slings in a month. haha. that's bad, bad, bad.
But god-pa( bartender) told me that experience in F&b will only be felt or gained only when u broke something, i guess he was trying hard to console me. haha.

MR alan the nice guy, always send his water from malaysia to us everyday. he makes sure that we only drink clean and good water. lol, i felt so poor thing for the guests sia, lol.

hidir stole dougnuts today, so dumb, never eat finish. The lifeguard 1 hour 8 bucks sit so high, read love poems only. ahha..

i have so much things to talk about work.

there's one powerful guest. he have been staying at shangri-la for more than 5 years. HE LIVE THERE, i mean his family. haha. his son is a hot guy studying in spore and waiting for his A-levels.

i took some pics of my colleagues but got to load them when harney lends me his fone. haha.

mission in shangri-la:
to be able to balance 6 bottles of tiger bottle
" collect glasses with oval tray.
" live with the grumbles the irriating chef ( cant rmb his name)
..
....
.....
.......

alot more.

here's some pics at wenjun's party!

jamie-elim-xt-me!

angels (:

tryin to act cute. haha me only!

duno why he was this CLOSE to me. ahha

me with tyrant of bgss. haha. my ex.

happy bdae , babe

blur.

she's wishing hard.

chubby-adorable vs chubby non-adorable

LOOK, she's so red, bashar kept saying that she's drunk. JUST VOKDA WITH ROOT BEER, WTF!

me and bryanie

yusof the drug addictor.

we love two TWO! (2003)

girl who dared bryan to kiss me. obviously he didn't DARE to. haha.

fair vs chao ta

pretties

we are soooo similar. FIRST pic right, elim? haha

Love baby love, should i work tommorrow?
8 dollars per hour seems inviting.
im hungry,
for love.

solly la baobao.. =(

2006-01-21T17:00:00.000-08:00

didn't sleep at all last night..so shag today..
i went to visit my uncle at jurong again..last min he had to deliver some ice to i had to follow him the whole night..his health isn't very good and my aunt bu fang xin him going alone..
turned out i broke a promise with my lao lao niang..supposed to go work with her today then after work go wisma walk walk..in the end i stayed at the factory till noon..skipped my work..alamak..

gina darling also decided to skip work with me..i'm so sorry..sigh..i've been cracking my brains since morning on ways to hong her but she's still angri with me..anyone with any suggestions pls help me..i know it's all my fault..

but anyway i told sweared to her i'll go work tmr from here..thou i'll be staying over another night..

oh btw, gina darling came to tp on friday for the open house!
hope she does make it to htm..coincidentally the student she spoke to worked at shangri la..her internship program..i told gina darling she could most probably make a deal with shangri la to employ her right after she graduates from tp tp, tp.work for a year plus and get promoted to a captain with 1.8k/month..do a good job and within the next year can up one more level be an asst. manager with 2.2k-2.4k/month..i guess for a fresh diploma graduate it's quite okay bah..hehe..i sound like mao zedong with all my five-year plans sia..

alright. back to the main point of my entry..
wenjun is throwing some party at her old house tonight. dress code: black and white..
lol..party at home also got dress code?cool.
i'm so worried she's gonna get drunk over volka or sumthing..
she's a drinker. a bad one too.
if she does then i'll have to go fetch her home lu..

lastly, solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly solly to my dearest girlfriend gina pao jie wei..i love u!

"i can close my eyes to things i dun wanna see.
but i can never close my heart to things i dun wanna feel.
i miss y-o-u."

elo!

2006-01-19T22:45:00.000-08:00

boo..!

shit day at work.

2006-01-11T17:05:00.000-08:00

These few days was absolute shit. i could just stay at home and slack instead of working up so early and going back in few hours later, fuck that.

im fireD!

from wed to sun, cheebye.

no because i did anything wrong.

it's because poolside has too many staffs and the manager thinks we are slacking because it has been raining for 11234567890- days, the days raining is even lesser than 987623476496560 napkins that i have folded for the line.
hence they only let four staffs, 3 helping at the terrace and 1 at poolside. THAT FCuking turns me off.

I NID A JOB WITHIN THESE 4 DAYS. HOEPFULLY SHANGRILA GYM HAS VANCANCY. FUCK THATS 5.50 PER HOUR. 6AM TO 2PM, CAB FARE COMPANY GIVE, CAUSE MY SIS WORK THERE BEFORE.

At LEAST THE PAY IS STABLE, THEY WUN TELL U TO GO HOME BECAUSE OF RAIN.

YEAY FUCK THAT, I SPRAINED MY WRIST FOR THIS WORK AND THEY DUN LET ME HAVE STABLE WORKING HOURS. I KNOW IM INEXPERIENCED, OF COURSE THEY WILL SEND ME HOME. BUT FUCK, WHY SPARE THAT FEW DOLLARS WHEN U ARE SELLING SOFT DRINKS AT 10 BUCKS A CAN AND MAKING 59 MILLION DOLLARS IN 2005.

FUCK UNFAIR.

STUPID CASHIER, STUPID KENDURINA OPEN SO LATE. I HAVEN GET MY FUCKING LUNCH AND MONEY FOR GOD'S SAKE.

IM BLOGGING AT THE HOTEL BTW.

SHIT. WHAT CAN I DO FUCK DURING THESE FOUR DAYS. FUCKING PISSED. grrrr!!

17TH JAN, 24 JAN I AM OFF, WHO WANA JIO ME DATING HAHA....

AHHH

I CANT TAHAN
IM OFF TO GO TP TO SEE MY DARLING.
CHIAOS.!
5 MINS BEFORE I CAN GET MY FOOD.

long time no blog!

2006-01-07T00:02:00.000-08:00

whAT this is the first entry i have blogged in year 2006 i think. I hate writing on paper the year as one year passed. etc from 2005 to 2006, i always forget to write 6 instead of 5. haha but last time got school, like have to get used from writing 3/3 to 4/3. then now i have graduated, feel so strange.

Just dreamt that i went back to my pri sch last night, harns was with me, as well as my cousins all in their secondary sch uniforms. Everyone of us, cousins have finally gotten out of FPS! CheerS!

anyway one of my cousin went to temasek and the other at junyuan( i hate this school due to ms nora) , haha.

i miss school, miss badmouthing TSH, bloody nora, thick lips, chicken head gang.
i miss four three! will there be an outing? i doubt so. I fucking hate the feeling if like 3 months later den we meet will be damn awkard sia. =(

anyway im currently working at shangri-la with harney! haha. $6 per hour. It's at poolside and i love my work! haha we keep stealing food from kitchen! lol. oh yea, i shared one beer with nur and one of the lifeguard but i admit later, damn pai seh sia. Alan like damn fierce, but actually he wasn't angry lah, he tell me, later i drink then my face red red how to work? haha.

i have sooo much to write about my working place. shall load some pics next time.

so far, only tipped twice. once by a caucasian and the other was a japanese. But seriously i did very little sia. BOth tipped me ten bucks each respectively on my third day and my fourth!

haha he wasssss so jealous of me, keep scolding chee beh! haha. not chee bye. beh sounds nicer. ahah i know youre joking lol.

so far how many days i have been working.
thur(28/12) -11am-3pm
break 30 mins = less earn 3 bucks.
fri- 11-7
sat- 11-5
sun- 10-6
mon- 11-6
tue- off
wed- 10.30-6

by wed had received $189
banked in $180.
spent $8 on a damn nice top! hehe.

thur- 11-5
alan returned $12 instead of $15. total received by today was $93.
spent nine on jean's biki
spent 6 plus on popcorn and stuff
i'll give the dark 3.5 out of 5 bites.
gave huns 30 bucks just in case.

fri-11-6
alan returned my half an hour. didn't had break! received $42.
harns gave me a heart ten bucks. =)
spent eighteen on two fox tees.

so far, work for a week.
i love taking daily pay but fear of losing my money thru shopping! dammit! haa

oh yeah i think most of the people there are quite nice sia. i like to play with the kids, watch them play golf. see how the people slack and appreciate good food. oh fuck the line has founde! ( wrong spelling i think anws it's the choc fountain, it's somewhere near the bar where i collect the cocktails and milkshakes, beers, wines.) THe STRONG FUCKING SCENT OF CHOCOLATE LOOKING SO FRESH CREAMY YUMMY. MY SALIVA JUST CANT STOP FLOWING. the guests put sticks of strawberry at the fountain and wah make me feel like stealing their sticks. lol.

oh yeah harns and me buy bets on soccer in the end MAN-U and ARESENAL DRAW! alamak man-u should win what, then i can win 8 bucks. haha. in the end our 35 bucks lost.cannot buy next time liao, broke sia. imagine i can spend that money on roxy!

i want that roxy file! grr.

i have lots to blog but cant get off much outta my mind.
chiaoS!

snappy snappy! teehee.
tmr work!

hey gina bao, i skipped work ! muhaha

2005-12-28T18:30:00.000-08:00

hehe..while gina darling is out finding work for herself, i skipped mine..!
came to uncle's place in jurong area to see how he was doing..mama called and said he was ill..
and i was supposed to go work this morning but i was lazy as usual.told my manager i was sick..i'm such a good liar..(that's how my lao niang fell into my trap) ahhaha..she fell for it again just yesterday only..sigh..

yesterday's work was kinda slack cos it rained sometime around 1.45pm? as i'm working by the pool, rain = no guest = no service for guest = SLACK lor..
until around 3+ still raining then manager decided to fire me for the day..cos i stand around zhuo bo..might as well not have me around..but in the end i convinced him to let me stay till 6pm which means i can get a 3 more hours of 'doing nothing work'. sound budget hor..but actually u think of it, spent 1 hour getting all the way to orchard, work 4 hours then go home take another 1 hour..crazy..might as well get paid more rite..go back later a bit also no diff..

then comes the exciting part..actually it's more like the 'cannot wait to do something' feeling la..
i msged gina darling to see where she was..since i was about to go home early and she doesn't know it yet, might as well surprise her lor..found out she was a TM so i took a train straight there..in between was lots to hard work trying to fake that i'm gonna work till 7pm..but long story cut short la hor..reach TM's delifrance and saw her with lena and her sis..both of them saw me but i told them to keep quiet while i chatted with gina for about 3 mins stand right behind her..when i told her i had to get back to work, she requested for an ahem and i gave her one on her cheek..she looked at me with her adorable eyes..stunned..that was the few seconds that i had been so excited to see since i finished work..haha..

i know it's naughty but 'i liked that'.....
loaf u hippo piah.

1, 2, 3, 4 king kong, ivy pong. gina popiah! (" ,)

the toot fairy.

hu chou.
yikes!

but i love her with every beat of my heart..
muarcks(with choc)!

shitty day at work day ONE!

2005-12-28T00:29:00.000-08:00

EVERLONG says:
hey hey!

EVERLONG says:
: )

EVERLONG says:
how was your day

gasolina says:
shitty

gasolina says:
haha

gasolina says:
i went to work as the donations collector person, but i quit in 2hours

gasolina says:
haha.

EVERLONG says:
work?

EVERLONG says:
you get commision right

gasolina says:
cos the bookmark u sell if the customer buy and take it = u earn 60 cents
if he buy but never take = u earn 2 bucks

gasolina says:
that means begging for money

gasolina says:
wtf

EVERLONG says:
ya

EVERLONG says:
then why you go in the first lpace.

gasolina says:
so i went to find lena and went gai gai with her

yeah, haha so i really quit in 2 hours, i only earned 60 cents,despite me waking up in the early morning, which i rarely did after the Os. I sold one bloody bookmark. okie wadever, it's getting me down. let's not talk about it anymore. oh i saw terrance, gina and hui wen at city hall.
i left around 11 plus...

then audi suddenly told me that!

Lone spectator.. says:
i saw caleste and 1 of ure classmate at city hall just now..
gasolina says:
lol
gasolina says:
i was there too!!
gasolina says:
i quit
gasolina says:
serious
Lone spectator.. says:
issit???
gasolina says:
when u arrive
gasolina says:
yea
Lone spectator.. says:
arh!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lone spectator.. says:
y i nv see u??
gasolina says:
i quit doing it at aorund 11 plus
gasolina says:
hehe.
gasolina says:
cos really damn sian
Lone spectator.. says:
wallau...

haha, ok shit, this is what i called no fate.
i went to laserflair thinking to rent the dvds- infection and amityville horror and vcd- monster-in-laws
turn out one of the show was M18 and i cant rent,
and i forgot to bring my Ic, and they said i never rent from laserflair before so i cant rent. wtf, i spend like 20 mins looking at what i wana rent. GRr

so i went to lena house, then her dad drove us to taka basementfor lunch- the restaurant was called central. I feel like damn bad sia that lena's dad paid for her, i'll pay her back tmr. =)
abit heartpain. haha

then we went to metro to shop for tmr's work, black shoes needed.
oso bought body shop- a bar of soap. nice fragrance! i just bathed with that.hehe
then we buy nail polish at thefaceshop, using sara's fingernails as trial.
then ate some stuffs at delifrance. first time going sia. expensive place.
lena gave me hershey's lip balm, hehe i keep licking it.
oh bim's sis also gave me a lip stick from estee lauder. expensive stuff. *thanks*

we also went to take our passport size photos. i think my face sucks. lol.
earn 60 cents, spent alot. ahah.

im kind hearted , i shall put the pics of that xmas day here. =)
enjoy!

hey !@#$%^&**, where's my drink

meet santa! he's too skinny. maybe ten years down the road lah hor, bim? hehe

nothing can bring us down..

meet santa baby.

minghui and d coups

dun show me those innocent eyes of urs, mingdao is still mine, no matter what! haha

ok guys! look, here's our plan...

yummmmmmmmmmmmms!

cute hehe

ivy wishes to be hanged by lightsticks

i prefer to take poison and die. haha

show me the dance baby.

failure attempt of weaving using mouth by lightsticks.

let's get onto the sofa and dance like no tmr..

lesbianemos

same

lets GLOWWwww!

best english singer

tooth fairy

=)

siblings

open pressie!

papa mama

santa(center) is extra

daddy's girl

i nidd to get tanned

whose the man?

whose the woman?

i won!

(:

i lovee xmas!

open pressieee

sleep

nerdy vs nerdy

lets sleep..

wE!

us!

mother and bdae girl

peek aboo!

i noe it's ugly. but its not my usual position.

boo!

yaRmmmm...seng!

_finish!_
loves
i got another job tmr.. wish me luck!
tata!

pics view it urself!

2005-12-26T19:10:00.000-08:00

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cant see the pics. dun torture ur eyes, click on it
it's also faster this way, but sorry ah u nid to click the arrow next urself..

will renovate the system.

loves.

merry xmas!

2005-12-26T02:06:00.000-08:00

im sure im the last to wish you guys whose reading this a merry xmas right? teehe!
WELL

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!

Meet santa.

It rained quite heavily yesterday but it didn't dampen our mood for KBOX, b' cos it's sheltereD! hah. ok, uhm so we went to minghui's house and waited for them to bathe etc getting ready, while Bim got home to change and me to get my specs and contact lens case. Wearing them is seriously a chore, mom told me that when im 21, she will sponsor me laser. HOoRay, i cant wait. Talking about it, my sis went clubbing at Mos again..grr, when am i going to be EIGHTEEN? I heard that people scratch their IC in order to get into clubbing. I was pretty tempted to try out on EZ-link card but my sis said cant. They are checking the IC, so damn it, in the end i chickened out to go. haa

Anws, mos= ministry of sound.

hey im wearing this pair of specs for 3 years +++, how cool is that. I nid a new specs, it's ugly i think. i hate wearing them cause it's frameless! rmb the hoohaa over frameless? i want a red/dark blue small rectangular frame specs!

uhms, coming back to it, yesterday i had a pretty bad quarrel with bim. Not exactly quarrelling just like not happy. But it's okay already. like after 30 mins? we are both easily contented people. ahhas.

yucks. my fingers feel so oily after eating chicken wings. E-ARCKS! oh nevermind, uhm we had pasta mania at tm, after which we went to shop for bim's auntie's xmas gift. Then we went to KBOX at tampines! FREAKING 28 bucks for one head. We really made a mess outta that place. initially we still picked up those crazy ribbons we sprayed. But when they count down for xmas, they also made the place so dirty that we joined in the fun. Poor cleaners of KBOX, oh btw, warning female toilets of KBOX are especially filthy. wah kao, then i was wearing jeans lor, and i dirtied it. oh man!

Oh yea, we had our first drink which was some red cherry drink. BIm and mine was blue alcholic+ cherry drink. Our second drink was tiger beer(jessica alba!) and orange juice. I drank the beer and got really high, dance like siao. Haa, but they think i was drunk when i almost wanted to take off my top when we got crazy over the "take-off" song- du de wei. I never ever got this high before. It's
my
best
xmas
ever!

we stayed till three am, 3am, and took 2 cabbies home. Bim had to sleep in the living room, we made real nice things with the 80 plus lighttsticks we had.

i meet bim's dad and aunt, their kid. megan sis and his brother. real nice people. =)
it wasn't scary as i thought!

pictures next time round!

minghui the xmas bdae girl. ur bdae is over, hAW haw. haha.

loves.=)

let it snow let it snow let it snow

ben!

2005-12-23T03:02:00.000-08:00

hey this is the ben i was talking about! haha!

!

cya!
merry xmas in advancE

loves'

horoscope! what's you all about? some only....i cant find all =(

2005-12-23T02:05:00.000-08:00

not in order..(adapted from links from ken's blog)

Horoscope sign: Virgo
Virgo is the only zodiacal sign represented by a female. It is sometimes thought of as a potentially creative girl, delicately lovely; sometimes as a somewhat older woman, intelligent but rather pedantic and spinsterish. The latter impression is sometimes confirmed by the Virgoan preciseness, refinement, fastidious love of cleanliness, hygiene and good order, conventionality and aristocratic attitude of reserve. They are usually observant, shrewd, critically inclined, judicious, patient, practical supporters of the status quo, and tend toward conservatism in all departments of life. On the surface they are emotionally cold, and sometimes this goes deeper, for their habit of suppressing their natural kindness may in the end cause it to atrophy, with the result that they shrink from committing themselves to friendship, make few relationships, and those they do make they are careful to keep superficial.

Horoscope sign: Scorpio
Scorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an 'outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace'. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous.

Horoscope sign: Sagittarius
Sagittarians have a positive outlook on life, are full of enterprise, energy, versatility, adventurousness and eagerness to extend experience beyond the physically familiar. They enjoy traveling and exploration, the more so because their minds are constantly open to new dimensions of thought. They are basically ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed. Their strongly idealistic natures can also suffer many disappointments without being affected.

Horoscope sign: Taurus
The Taurean's characteristics are solidity, practicality, extreme determination and strength of will - no one will ever drive them, but they will willingly and loyally follow a leader they trust. They are stable, balanced, conservative good, law-abiding citizens and lovers of peace, possessing all the best qualities of the bourgeoisie. Taureans are faithful and generous friends with a great capacity for affection. In the main, they are gentle, even tempered, good natured, modest and slow to anger, disliking quarreling and avoiding ill-feeling.

Horoscope sign: Cancer
The Cancerian character is the least clear-cut of all those associated with the signs of the zodiac. It can range from the timid, dull, shy and withdrawn to the most brilliant, and famous Cancerians are to be found through the whole range of human activity. It is a fundamentally conservative and home-loving nature, appreciating the nest like quality of a secure base to which the male can retire when he needs a respite from the stresses of life, and in which the Cancerian woman can exercise her strong maternal instincts. The latter tends to like and to have a large family. `Nest like' is an appropriate adjective for the Cancerian home, for its inhabitants tend to favor the dark, mysterious but comfortable type of house which has something of the air of a den about it, a place which belongs to the family rather than existing as a showcase to impress visitors.

today was bimbo's last paper. HOORAY! ive finally got someone to accompany me.!
So we went to town, saw chengyee on the train, saw meijuan and raihana.=)
Thats what we bought at town
a bottle of peppermint salts for mommy.
a fox spag for jeanie.
split half the cost of a 1gi memory card with bimbo.
christina's bdae pressie from surfbabe.
2 grape champagne from watsons.
one pair of butterfly earrings! im loving it! thanks bim!
a pair of couple watch

i saw AH BEN! YANG ZHI LONG.
u know the show yummy king? the singapore actor!
Heeeee, he's sooo cute! i was talking on the phone and so was he! When i past by him, i was like pointing madly to bim about him. i was like " ben! ben! omg, hes soo cute!" he looks so cool too!
But my mingdao is more handsome, hhehe no, my bim is more =)

ok btw,ive been to shangri la hotel TWICE! REcORD OK! haha
what i did today
went to shangri la wait for bim to get his pay, we had a couple of drinks, and ate ice cream, while watching table tennis match! Im so priviledged!
Then went to buy his memory card, bargained awhile but no use, bim like quite heartbroken. haa. i love the couple watch, best gift ever, ok that watch is enough le, ok? hhaa.
We havok in the bus *winks*, i shivered like hell den bim laughed at me, i almost pulled out his balls. haha.

The most important thing is we had dinner today! With my family, cause it was daddy's birthday!
It's downstairs our house, the food was alright but i drank alot of soup, like 4 small bowls and one slightly bigger bowl. i told mom to cook this for me! hehe. =)
we were feeding this cute cat and the person suddenly drag the chair which the cat was under, sadly the cat got a lil dragged away by the person. aw.
haha

we bought a cake and went up to eat, ivy wana buy this cream bread thingy but inside got worm so she throw back.haha den she imitate the auntie by saying the price. everyone laugh like crazy.
we bought the lightstick those thin kinds, stupid ivy shake the bottle and as a result 14 are snapped and light up. haha everyone did funny tthings with those sticks. willy korkor took 2 purple and put behind his ears like shrek, jeanie made the circle, put on her head like yellow angel. i made a necklace, dear made a bracelet, ivy arh i duno lah she very anyhow one. even my parents stuck the stick behind their ears.=D HAHA!

pictures!!!
different days.!

with them! =))

scamming! ivy saying " let the pro do the job."

willy" look what uve done!"
ivy" ahh fuck, !@#$%^&*" taking a closer look.

im eating the cake, hey clear view of my butterfly earrings!

caught unknown

photographer of the day-bim!
haa.loves baybee

niceee coffee cake!

bdae boy!

pwincess daughter of birthday boy!

loyal RC treasurer, haha his nipples. lol

happy birthday to you, happy birthd..

light stick heartie!

wowE!

hehe

loves me

love on the lights

good way to lose fats, skip it!

as long as im determined, even the sticks break, i will PERSERVE!

i like this pic! see the shades of color?

i look like 18 but i feel like 5, =)

letsss's partty!

scary fuck!

headstand in the circle of sticks

ivy.

fake ivy

shit photobucket is hang now, ok i shall blog what i saw just now

i saw this bloody spider struggling in the toilet bowl while i was peeing wtf, and i saw mosquito again, i just killed 5 last night. plys while i was bathing shd be 7 in total. so i flushed the mosquito and the spider down. haa. evil.

back to the pictures!

ivy again

ivy doesn't like exposing her face but more of her name
but gina sounds nicer. Ha!

lips, sexy, thick lips

some shit ivy constructed.

bim and my foot! stuck lightstick

i have the smallessssttt eyes in d whole wide world!

our couple watch!

in the cab to shang shang shangri LA!

cheese.! your on cam, behbee

i love the train, the safest and fast roller coaster.

call me kiddy, i wana be back to the time when i was 4 or 5, i lived a dreamy world that time.

i wantttt that for xmas! plu-yeast? *pouts*

some shit ivy threw in the cup

some meeting. aiyoh minghui wrong sitting arrangement lah

ivy must have burped so badly that minghui was relieved that she's gone. haha..

the kind of attitude in POA

that loooks like YOU! ahha

bim! that handsum! take note: its dark, u have to stand up in order to see clearly!

bim! his nails were done pink by yours truly. =)

hippo nids to catch up with news! actually i bot the newspaper just to find jobs. lol

It's christina's birthday!
happy birthday!

ALL i want for christmas is you..!

loves.

i love their blogs..

2005-12-21T15:03:00.000-08:00

that bimbo got my future hp k750i, it's so unfair.!
anws, i really like these 2 blogs, cause there's a handsome prince inside.hehe
http://www.astrid-confessions.blogspot.com/
n
http://luv1angel4eva.blogspot.com/

and im so tempted to steal these codes. hehe. so evil. haha but anws i like my blog, that many many pictures. Im goona put more mingdao pictures.!

haha sorry minghui, mingdao is mine, u can have ah de, if u dun mind! wahaha

loves.
tmr's daddy birthday, yipee! hopefully bimbo is invited to the dinner. PRAYS
i bought some xmas gifts for my bubbly cousins.
And im so broke.
Who's gng buy me xmas gifts? haha.
many of my cousins bot me jewellery from perlini silver.but what i want is a billabong handbag or a cap. GROANS!

haha, but i appreciated their offer, thanks alot bubbly cousins!
And i soo cant wait for that birthday bash at kbox, it's gonna be at 10pm to 1am!

mingdao!!!!!
hah
no
i mean
ow yong!!!
haha

pics with days spent with dick edward(who spent a week here)

2005-12-21T04:31:00.000-08:00

at siloso.. zhaoting told me her classmates actually wore the color tee and took pics here, so cool!

bing quan, dick, me* awkard*

weiming, guo quan, dick, tracy, zhaoting.

at the airport!
weiming, jack,bing quan, guo quan,dick and me!
hai, so odd one out. haha

same one, but vertical kinda.

im gonna miss them,
spending time with them!haha.
there's another batch ive still haven asked them out,
hazizi, yanglin, zhaoyuan, yasmin, kamil, izzat, qi zheng, qi jun, michelle, limei..etc etc.

TAKE NOTE: CLASS FOUR THREE, WE'LL BE HAVING A "GATHERING" AT ESCAPE, ON 26 DECEMBER, HOPE THOSE WORKING CAN TAKE TIME OUT! ( date may change)
please sms me or email me whoever's going.

LOVES.

hair saloon day at home!

2005-12-20T01:06:00.000-08:00

I caught wrestling survivor series, when shawn michael lost, i was really shocked, he had lost to one stupid guy, ahah forgot his name. the match of triple H vs rick flair was shitty, rick got his head all in blood i think the match lasted quite long. I liked the women match, haha but i still like LITA best! Ok whatever, uhm so i slept at 3 plus. Was woken up by mommy at around 10 odd, she told me that it was my turn for treatment(hair). I saw jeanie's hair permed, and my mum's hair wrapped in a transparent shower cap. Then i saw ivy in the kitchen, sitting by the windows and the hairdresser cutting her hair.
I brushed my teeth, and the friendly and nice person said in chinese" tai yang sai dao pi gu le".
When it was my turn i was so excited, i had a hair cut den was told to wash my hair. Meanwhile, she helped my sis continue to perm. My session of treatment lasted like 5 or 10 mins? haha. she just applied something onto my hair. In the same turban hairstyle, with the shower cap on, i was asked to wait for 20 mins before washing my hair with WATER ONLY. what the fuck. I cant wash my hair for 2 days, aww that sucks, because i washed my hair twice a day, or at least once a day. haha my mom also, oh yeah and she did relaxing. That looked great on her, she looked so cute, like 10 years younger, and we helped her clip her fringe.
The hairdresser told me that next time if we visit her at her hometown- fu zhou(china), she'll bring us over to play, haa she encouraged me to take up hairdressing, and mom joined in saying that i always sleep till lunchtime and wasting time. Aw, i planned to take up yoga with minghui, haha nevermind.
I spend my monday slping away and watching tv, life is good after the dreadful Os, oh yeah, i heard that the N-level took their results, wishing them all the best!
My bimbo bought his N6230i for the 2nd time. Grr, im gona buy my K750i soon! haha pray hard that i get my pay by that time.

im jobless..
yeah that rocked,
but im broke
And i have soooo many things to buy in mind.
But i still wana play.
life's soo good.
Oh who wana go escape with me? taggg.!

I just sent dick off yesterday, skipped my spex tournament. Seriously i missed taekwondo, im planning to get my pacs. haha bullshit. An emotional sight yesterday, haa he hoped he didn't have to leave and stayed in singapore for few months. haha nvm, see you next decemeber!

i bought a gummy necklace for siewhuims for xmas. its not small, it's like at least the length of a 30cm ruler. haha.

whew, auntie didn't interrogate me about my bimbo.

2 days of torture, im counting down time in seconds to wash my hair. haha.

silly.
i love you.
:)
countdown: 5 more days to minghui's bdae and xmas!
a week to interview
2 months that my 16th birthday was over. HAHS!

a wonderful day out with mama!

2005-12-18T22:00:00.000-08:00

rise and shine around 11.30am..
brother woke me up to pei him eat 'breakfast'.
so i got my lazy ass out of bed to wash up..
well, this wash up that i had today was special..a damn fast one..
it only consisted of 3mins of teeth brushing before i found myself in the car..all because he kpo went to start the car so fast and end up blocking the one way street outside my gate..so i bo bian..had to rush out without even changing from my sleeping attire..
by the time we decided where to go,it turned out we were just in time for lunch..kept driving around bedok inter but he was bored with the food there so..he droved to parkway..took us another half hour to decide which restaurant in parkway to go to..sigh..think think think,in the end,pastamania was his final answer..after all, he was paying so i let him choose..haha..

then mamar called me say wanna go gai gai around town cos she was around there..but then we're in the east and my bro was too lazy to drive so far, somemore i was in my sleeping attire, so i had to be the one to tell her wad my bro suggested..Tampines Mall..

fast forward:so we finished our mean each, blah blah blah..arrived at TM about an hour later..my mum arrived first before my bro and i came..my sis also came around 10mins later while my second bro was snoring away at home..

sis and mum were hungry but bro and i were full of pasta in our stomach..went to 4th storey's phil's grill to have steak..ordered 2 sets for sis and mum while bro and i pinch their fries! so we ate, blah blah blah..after the meal, we went around shopping for goodies! sis was enthu about christmas gifts which made my hand itchy too..i bought christmas cards! sis got cards too and some figurines to give her friends..mama went for clothes..she only buys useful things cos she thinks wad for buy someone something that they can't use?hahah..funny seh..oh then we came to the bra section when she kept touching the bra pads pressing to feel the texture etc. in the end she just say,"aiya, not the kind i want." walks off..lucky i not the promoter sia..or else sure du lan wanna smack her..hehe..we also went century square where sis tried out some shoes around the 'exclusively hers.' section..

cock sia..they can have an area for all gal's stuff and even a gal's toilet at the end..only wanna attract those crazy lady shoppers but making them feel 'exclusive'. clever rite..kor had a look OP polo tees but i kept psycho-ing him not to cos they were plain ugly designs..

then it was my turn, i went to look at calvin klein's briefs..damn ex sia..1 piece cost about $20 - $30! boxers even worse..$40..no surprisingly, my mum said,"aiyo, underwear wear already also nobody see..buy so expensive brand for wad..hai..". hahahaha..that's wad all mums say..actually come to think of it, my sis's and mum's underwears are the most expensive..cos they need to wear 2 while i only need 1..i told my mum that and she replied,"ni sheng jing bing!" =P
so anyway, i skipped the calvin klein's section but picked a few boxers and briefs from bum and pierre cardin and mama paid for them..woohoo..

fast forward again:we left TM around 6pm and took bus 67 home. just nice my hp no batt while i was msging gina darling in the bus. wanted to go find her at airport but had to think twice cos i was in sleeping attire..sort of wanted to bathe before even seeing her..guess wad, i didn't even have enough batt to arrange a meeting place with her! and i already got off the bus to go tanah merah station..

knowing that she had to take a train back, i decided to wait at the platform for her..damn jia lat,didn't even have coins to call her..so i just waited and waited till the 3rd train from airport arrived..sigh..she wasn't on it..
so i thought she might have already gone to her ahma's place cos her dad could have fetched her right from the airport..and i left..at that time i didn't know how to contact her..should i borrow some stranger's hp and get suspected as a thief who's gonna run away with the hp?or simply beg for coins to make a call..just as i reached the bus stop outside, i missed my bus..so i stood alone waiting for another bus to come and just so coincidentally, there was a 10 cent coin on the ground..wah i think to myself, so heng get a coin to call le!
ran all the way back to the station and called gina darling..
but..no response..and worse of all, her voicemail ate up my only 10 cent coin!!

oh well..so i walked out again to the same bus stop and just nice, i missed the bus..it was the same bus number as before somemore..alamak..dunno why suddenly the buses took so long to come so meanwhile i kept looking into the control station hoping to see the hippo gina..there were so many people who looked like her and i kept thinking whether to run back or not..

until just so clearly, i saw a gal with long hair, carrying a pink/white/yellow handbag heading down the escalator! i told myself it was her, definitely..!
so i sprinted my way back to the station but i couldn't find her..not even a gal that resembled wad i saw earlier..everyone that alighted from the train have gone off..so i think..shit must be i see wrong le..damn heartbroken and walked off..but unlike before, i decided to take a last glance up the deserted escalator only to see the naughty gal's face just stepping onto it..
it was gina poa jie wei..
that very moment, my heart simply skipped a beat and she ran down the escalator with her arms wide open..it gave her the biggest hug ever!

when i think of the whole 1 hour incident, i really really couldn't believe it..the kind of thing i'd usually see only on channel 8 tv drama serials..the guy's hp no batt, the gal kept msging him not knowing that he can't read her msges, the guy wants to see the gal so desperately but dunno who to contact her..waits for all the trains to come by but the gal is not in any of them..in the end decides to leave but somehow doesn't..even misses the same bus number twice and picks up a 10 cent coin to call but cannot reach her..goes back a second time to look for the gal, but the gal happened to be in the toilet.. then when she comes out, the guy left already..blah blah blah..

aww man..it's gonna be an incident i wouldn't forget..all the time and trouble put in just to see the hippo's face was definitely worth it..i love her so much! =)

bimbo ("v") hippo always..

saw 2!

2005-12-18T00:24:00.000-08:00

I met favien at 230pm at somerset mrt station, late queen broke the record again. Haha. We bought the tickets and went in, but he sat in column C 13 and me d13, they were the corner seats and pretty scary. It's the first time i actually watched horror/gory/sickening shows with no one beside me for me to scream at or hide behind.

im playing neopets.! cya!

siloso beachy!

2005-12-17T01:41:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 10 by a phone call. Had to meet at 1pm at outram park, ahha first time late queen(me) reach first!
These are the people who went, zhaoting, me, dick, weiming and jack. They were pretty amazed with how much ive changed. haha in terms of height, hair length, face, etc etc.
Didn't recall zhao ting at first, haha around ten i still msg dick ask him zhao ting is a she or he. ha.
The guys looking hyper, jack looked as red as a lobster, he claimed that he came sentosa yesterday. haha. on the contrary, weiming was so fair like he had taken loads of bird nest. haha.! zhao ting kept saying :" weiming is so fair!" lol.
hehe, jack just mms me the pics. HOw nice!
Zhao ting is as cute as before(note! it's the same face she had when she's in P2!) When i saw her, i immediately recognise her.
I remember i had this bdae bash at my old house(blk 411), she was the only friend my mom allowed me to invite, and she gave me this box of hard cardboard thingy where u have to fix them like a puzzle. haha
wow, dad just cook some noodles. Believe it or not, his "dried mee" is damn nice. haha sometimes even better than mom.
ok coming back to it.
siloso, yeah. dick bought a frisbee once we reached there. They tried this coke experiment with mentos, sayin that the bottle will shoot into the sky, haha but in the end only around 10cm tall of coke flying out of the water and zhao ting was like " please, gimme one! like duno how many times. haha
Next, the guys went to the swimming pool and played water polo and frisbee, i was chatting to zhao ting about sec 3 camp. hah it seems that OBS was better.They had five days and four night camp! Their kayak was 12km far! She also talked about her ex, and me too. and blah etc, we chatted alot. haha I didn't went swimming with them for reasons like
1: i had contact lens on
2: no goggles
3: 2m deep, for fear my contact will drop off
4: zhao ting is alone
5: if i swim, im the only girl. haha.
6: my bikini might fly off. HA!

the guys played volleyball awhile. and man, jack was good at it.

Dick, me, and zhao ting had pretty nice talk and we went kayaking, me and zhaoting as doubles and the guys had singles. They didn't capsized us! haha. heng *phewS*
haha had trouble with the left right left right order, now i know that if u are heading towards shore u have to do right paddle to get you back into the water. haha
Left paddle for the "captain" and right paddle for the back person is to turn the "boat" haa.
spend around 1 hour or so kayaking. haha keep being stranded in the middle. Then when we were washed up to shore, the guys had to empty the water out of the "boat" and support us while we climbed back into it. ahha.. so long for kayaking. My fingers were breaking after having rowed SO much. ahhaa. tired man. Babes and hunks were playing volleyballs. There's this babe she had 6 pacs and i love her butt. haha.

Of we went to bathe, the problem is zhao ting didn't brought her inner wears and she wore hers while kayaking. weiming had to lend this stripe yellow tee to her that doesn't fit her. ahah,it was so huge that when u see her in it.And worse still, it's still showing her wet inner wears. It's so hilarious. Thus she had to wear a white tee inside this stripe tee, in this hot weather.haha.

And off we went for dinner, it was pretty yummy. Dick tried to get me and zhao ting for supper at 85 market, but we declined cause we were all shagged and full.

We took train to go outram park and jack and zhaoting was singing. dick couldn't take it. i kept laughing. The 2 supranos.
When we reached bugis, kuo quan(?) boarded, then zhao ting wanted to stop at eunos.Jack started to try using his big eyes and threatened us to go. When it failed, he started to do alot of funny tricks like taking zhaoting's hp away, and saying funny things like " ok u go la, aiya nvm lah, u be friends until like that" it's the soft way tactic. Zhao ting fell for it and really stopped at bedok, then the guys made a bet whether she's going with them for further activities anot.

Then the guys left for pool. Zhaoting went home and i went to blk 406 bball court and find harney and friends. was pretty bored at the match and had a bad urge to pee. Oh yea, the driver closed the bloody door at me, wtf, then we went to mac to have iced milo.

oh i almost forgot about it! haha my neighbour's dog actually know that the lift was spoilt and ran over to the other one and took the lift down with a stranger.reason being that 10pm daily was its daily jog.( the lift is around 200m away) haha anws the dog is called ketchup.haha.

here's some pics.very few...=(

me and jack

weiming and me

zhaoting and dick.

im waiting for dick to send me the one and only pic that we took as a grp pic of the block model wording siloso.

hehe goodnight everyone. loves. i miss my pri sch friends. esp zhao ting...=D

liar liar, pants on fire?

2005-12-16T01:00:00.000-08:00

alright alright.
the truth is out..i lied about my stitches..
but it was nice thou, u guys should have heard how gina darling sounded on the phone first before seeing how she looked the next day when i met her..
hehe.
but definite i didn't lie about the pain i went through..
one word: EXCRUCIATING.

it all happened after the i slid on the grass at turf city......
it was my team's first game and i came off the bench 5mins after starting. a minute later, i found myself in an 1 on 1 position and thus i called for the ball to be played to me. whether i was lucky or just plain unlucky, the ball was in my hands and i side stepped my opponent. the next thing i knew, he was off his feet and i was free. with no one marking me or supporting me, i ran straight towards the try line and dived on the ground. i scored. it was my first try for TP since i got into the team. stood up and celebrated with my team until i felt liquid flowing down my thigh. fuck, i saw the cut and it was deep. even the edges of the cut could be seen.

at the first aid tent, i met big sis in law, jeanie. wad a 'nice' place to meet her sia. she was okay, just checking how her injured friend was doing.
so back to my injury, the first aider conversation went like this......

first aider: "woah, so deep. how u get it?"
me:"i slid on the grass lor."
f a:"don't u know that the grass here is not so good for sliding?!"
me:"nope."(cock sia,if i knew then i wouldn't have slide rite!)
f a:"u want me to stitch it up for u?"(-_-")
me:"ummm..wad????!!!"(crazy first aider)
f a:"the cut too deep blah blah blah...must stitch up. or else i just bandage it up
for u lor. but u cannot walk around etc after that."

so i thought shit, took a cab all the way there just to play about 2mins of the first game and score a try. sigh..sad case..until i found out this first aider was not only a crazy cock, but she's also a nut head.

me:"wah shit..like that i cannot play anymore sia."
f a:"ya lor"
me:"is the stitching painful?"
f a:"very."(again i was like -_-"..who in the right mind would convince someone
to do something painful by telling him it's VERY painful?)
me:"fuk. okkkkay lorr."(imagined the pain in my head.)

oh i forgot to add. while she was talking to me, i was crying in pain, my cut was bleeding like nobody's business only to have some other patient to say,"eh..alot of blood leh".
for the third time, i went -_-"..now back to the conversation...

f a:"i wash the cut for u first."(isn't that wad she should have done FIRST? why
call herself a FIRST aider when she didn't do anything FIRST before
chatting with me?)
me:"orh."
f a:"i think nevermind la, i bandage it up for u. so u can go back into the game.
now u've got to bare with it."(even before i could agree, she sprayed this
fucking painful thing on my cut to stop the bleeding. ccb..i grabbed my leg
and screamed, ffuuuuuukkkkk...! the ordeal lasted for about 1 minute
before she applied some silicon into my open wound and bandaged my
whole thigh up.)
me:"owww..damn pain ah. so now i can play again?"
f a:"yup. and do me a favour,don't slide on the grass again."(obviously la..wah
lao eh..i then dun wanna see her face again.)
me:"ok. thanks ah."

so i didn't actually lied about getting stitches but instead the first aider chose not to at the last minute. i can't imagine wad will happen to me if i had the stitches done right before my eyes sia. mayb i'll drop dead seeing the sewing done otherwise i'd died from the pain!

well, but it sure does look better now. the wound is closed and it doesn't feel as painful anymore. it's healing all thanks to gina darling's 'special medicine', hugs & kisses!

tired!

2005-12-15T01:24:00.000-08:00

ive been playing. Feel quite guilty seeing all my friends working. I spent 3/4 of my year spending time with my cousins.
My POSB card machiam inside like few thousands, i go town everytime brush the card like there's no tommorrow. I bought tops from surfbabe and a ripcurl bag for harney. Still have no idea what to buy for the xmas baby- minghui. hai...it's so hard to buy things for a person when she has it or have the money to buy anything. I wish i was half as rich as her family.
My best friend had some problems currently, seeing her so down, i feel hell. WHY THE FUCK THAT HAPPENED TO HER.BLOODY HELL.
That day meet her, me and harney and her play pool. haha then we took the wrong cue stick, go take billard one, so pai seh can. aha.
Im broke, i nidda job, but im so lazy to work.
Oh yeah harney dyed his hair and got a new look. farking handsome. haha. same color as me.=D
Just now got one auntie funny sia wana spike her hair, then the hairdresser at white shock sia. then we laughed like siao.
Today i thrashed harney in basketball. haha ribena treat.
i miss those days playing basketball with yi lin, rahim, bryan etc.
I went tanning at bedok today, same as usual alot of tee gor peks. Three fat bitches by the pool talked some shit and i gave them no look.
no pictures, but briefly tell u, i wore the mambo blueish-green bik, green ash shades, roxy necklace, black hoop earrings and i on my handphone mp3 so loud that i feel that the pool was mine!

did i forget to tell you pokka green tea is my life too/?
haha

minghui's place

2005-12-11T00:01:00.000-08:00

hey we had this wonderful crashing over and slept at four plus, haha fact: we only had one uno session, haha and i lost.
some pics of the gynam session. haha

the ball stuck.

us in specs... yuck i loookedlike a freak!

ivy the retarded lion under the blankie

we love simpsons, oh yeah i will post the pictures of our last penalties the next time!

thefab room

barbie dolls, i use one barbie to slap the other and screamed "u stole my ken!"

yonghan with his vixen nails

wada!

catch rainbow connection at 9pm from mon to fri, alike to ben

bad attempt to get 10000kg pig up

why u can fucking get me up?

ok i try again.. said minghui

now u do it on me.. dont cha!

biiiiitttteeee emyyyyy teeetttthhhh

haha im up! screamsssss a i did it!

hey bitch on the floor, watcha problem?(me)

stop looking, or i'll fuck u up

argghhhh, get off u mawfofootoototo toot

i'll snap u off with my back.

bone fracture... arhhh my spine!

let me try. zebra trousers is me, the pink backside is minghui

the corpse, minghui.

ahhh baby got 6 stitches for on his left thigh in rubgy today.... AWWWW!
get well soon dear!

i hate myself for wad i did....

2005-12-07T01:00:00.000-08:00

it was like 2 months back when i planned to get gina that particular gift le..she didn't put it as one of her wish list item but i knew she wanted a pair of levis jeans badly..it was her dream since i met her to have her own pair of levis jeans..her sis has one but she has to go through hell before she evens gets to wear it on..everytime that happens, my heart aches..so we went trying a couple of jeans before deciding on the 599 pair..i sort of like the cutting too..it suited her perfectly..thus i paid for it and never have i seen her so happy upon getting a gift..somehow..deep in my heart, it was a gift i felt really proud of..

but sadly..when we went back to her house, gina's big sister started screaming her lungs out at gina darling..the true colours of jeanie was finally out right before me..all because gina tried on her sis's levis..if u could imagine wad will happen if she tries wearing it OUT..gosh..i won't wanna be around to hear it..next thing we knew, gina's mum came out and commented on the gift i bought for my darling..her comments were like questioning me why i WASTED my money..and why am i that rich blah blah..i knew she meant it as a joke..but i didn't know how to reply her..it's not just any gift, but it's a gift that gina really wanted and needed..should i say it was because jeanie didn't wanna lend her younger sis her pair of levis when jeanie was right infront of me? oh well, i couldn't bring myself to say it..i simply kept quiet..

that night..i was so stressed up..it was not because of the comments made by gina's mum..instead, i had a project due today at 10am and yet it wasn't even started at 11pm last night..got a call from gina darling around that time telling me about her mum scolding her when she intend to buy me an ipod nano in return for our 7 months anniversary..i planned to split the cost with her and she agreed after much persuasion by me.. for some reason, i heard wad her mum commented the second time and i just got pissed off..i bought the gift, why scold gina? yes, she meant it as a joke..but she told gina to tell me dun waste on her(gina)..doesn't she know that jeanie has been screaming at her daughter just because of a pair of levis jeans?yes, i'm not at all rich..i even have to work weekends just to cover my allowance..but i still know how to save money for getting the things i want whether it's a gift or for myself..isn't it better if gina now has a pair of jeans to call her own?

sigh..soon after getting pissed, the project came into my mind and added to the stress..i was so tired that day after being out the whole day and i blew my anger at my baby, gina..it all happened when i started chatting online with her and giving her attitude..i dunno why but i just didn't wanna start on my project at that time..until a point when i just told her i wanted to sleep and she said she'll wake me up 45mins later to go the project..45 mins passed and she called me..she was still online and even sent me a power point presentation project(something similar to wad i had to do)..i was speechless and thanked her..i dun really remember wad happened but i guess i still had the moody feeling..in the end, i started doing the project around 3am after chasing her back to sleep very abruptly..

the next morning i felt really really guilty..for the first time in our 7 months relationship i actually threw temper at her for nothing..it wasn't her fault i didn't do the project, i wasn't her fault her mum scolded her and most importantly, it wasn't her responsibility to help me with my project..
first thing i did when i woke up, i sent her a msg to apologise..yet, she wasn't at all angry with me instead she was very understanding..she knew i was moody that's why..aww man..i felt so bad to have her try to help me out in my project while i was sleeping for that 45mins..
this silly gal of mine stood by me even after being shown attitude and temper by me..

all i can say now is, dear, i really regretted treating u that way..sorry, i knew wad i did wrong and i promise never to do that again..i guess this wad others say about stress-management..when too many things come into ur mind at the same time and u dun manage them, u'll burst..i hope u'll accept my most sincere apology for the incident with the card and pocky biscuit i placed at ur doorstep..i'll never forget wad u did for me that night, the project especially with the last slide..

sometimes i seriously wonder..wad great things did i do in my past life to get a caring and understanding girl like u to be my girlfriend?i'm so blessed..
i love u always..Mu Ah..=)

harney signing off~

a song for my darling sweetheart gina..(" ,)

2005-12-04T22:15:00.000-08:00

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
til the sky falls down on me...
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest powers.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'cause it's standing right here before you.
All that you need will surely come...
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

truly, madly, deeply by savage garden. counting down till 7 months! yay~

american pie four!

2005-12-04T20:00:00.000-08:00

I spent my saturday snuzzling in bed ,was awaken by mom's linedance blasting music. Harney bought me mac and brought me her world magazine and his handphone cover, haha so my cover now is black!
Breakfast was some chicken porridge that i didn't like, i watched crayon shin chan and slept a little. Interview at dad's company tommorrow, i cant wait to start working, get paid, and buy harney a ipod nano. =)
I want christmas to come~ right now! All the party and shit like that. Lets get the party with lingerines and with lotsa chickas and dudes. haha.. wth step slang.
my cousin bought the frog cd! ahha no not that stupid fucka frog going beep beep. haha its some 183 group and obviously ming dao is my life, haha.
Hmm, and i watched american pie four at my cousin's place. haha its not really as porn as that cd that we watched at yasmin's chalet. ahha anyone rmbs the title tag at my blog! haha..
Harney spent a day at my place yesterday..* winks* Im loving it.! haha...

hold my hands, we fly into eternity. Look in my eyes, dun lie.
For the sun will rise, true as old as tale.
a whole new world with you!

because of you..

2005-12-02T14:15:00.000-08:00

my little darling is a princess!
check out the pics.
see the gal with the naughty face? yup, that's her..
she was so pretty in the 3/4 gown i bought for her..
hehe..cos i only 3/4 of it..the other 1/4 she paid..

well, all the hassle of choosing the nicest gown and prom accessories comes up to only a night of fun and excitment..like so fast..
sigh..time flies when u're having fun..
anyway, darling has gone for an interview today at 2pm..
too bad i can't join her cos her female friend doesn't really like me around..
all the nonsense about stealing her 'gf' away actually made her angry..
talk about being over-possessive..girl-girl relationship also can affect sia..lol..

yawn..whatever it is, i just hope my darling is doing fine at the interview..i've to admit that i was quite a nag when telling her about the Dos and Don'ts at an interview..apparently she herself doesn't know wad the company at clark quay is doing..told her to ask the person who intro her to it, turned out she also dunno..
-_-" alamak like that..
so i nagged about not signing any documents so easily, giving too much personal information about urself etc.

wah my eyes cannot open le..i need a nap..didn't catch enough sleep since wednesday..bye!

prom!

2005-12-01T22:02:00.000-08:00

pictures!

bleh siblings

classic

=)

me before making my hair and makeup

after hair and makeup

kai xiang and me

3 years friends!

2 years friends!

quiet- noisy- noisy- quiet

rahim and me

cutie hanny

papa joe bringing her daughter to prom haha, so cute right!

me and dear

me and dear

i love the ceiling

me and glenn

i loveeee them...

and themmm too!!!!!!!!!

just simple as that.

wah sehh...

me and shaman.

my brother

and another! bro favien

and bro abdillah...

black again...

my favourite!!

pictures at the airport!!

i miss u hanny!

hannyvanjamie

van and hanny

hugggggies she feels so nice to cuddle

so cute =D

sweet thangs.

hanny take care, we'll always love you! adorable lil gal!

prom

2005-12-01T18:14:00.000-08:00

I love prom, i hate the MCs. So annoying, dampened our mood only eh. haha can dance whole night yesterday.
Was so shocked to see alot of unexpected people changing their hair( color or style) etc etc.. was indeed a very memorable night. Food was not up to standard but the service was not bad. My ex got flunked by me. wahahaha! ok whatever. hehe.
Love my hair yesterday, i curled it. Make up was like ghost, should have left my cousin to do for me. Im really broke.
Cant talk much here, ivy's nagging at me for the com. will update another entry later.

i miss hanny hendry !
boy, i never went out with her a long time and now she had to go, the fact that she herself also don't know whether she's cuming back anot. I bought her a necklace at mini bits this morning, hope when she wears it, she'll think of me. She's really a very sweet lil' gal.

will update some pics of the prom later + today pics @ the airport!

candy empire rules!

treasure the time spent with everyone around you.
god bless my daddy riding on the motorbike
he got an car accident yesterday.
i love muah family.

stressful days are over darling!

2005-11-25T02:00:00.000-08:00

yay~!
stressful days are finally over for my darling gina..!!
phew..the past 3 weeks was hell man..
especially when barney was so low in morale after most of her tough papers..
well, all i have to say now is that i'm thankful it's all over..
darling, dun be disheartened about not scoring well for any of ur papers..
for a fact i felt that u were really putting in alot to study for them..
always look on the bright side of life!
enjoy ur holidays for the next 6 months! u dun really get this kind of an opportunity often u know? =P

been busy at school lately..
if it isn't lectures and tutorials, it's rugby..
next week is my quiz week..need to revise on the new topics learnt for the past 3 weeks..
sigh~ dun really have the time like before to spent with gina..
but at least i've got her for tmr! LOL.. most probably it's hairy potter unless she decides to take me shopping for her prom stuffs with her..
oh did i mention that she loves shopping??
come to think of it, which girl doesn't?? it's alright with me thou..

and now i started to work on weekends just so i can get extra allowance to buy my own stuff and of course, buy my naughty little darling's stuff too..
i hope to be able to pamper her as much as possible..dun want her to get a job and work too hard either now or in the future!
people might think i'm spoiling her but actually i'm not.
i want her to work for the things she wanna buy but just not to the extend whereby she get too fatigue and falls ill..
this weekend schedule will be 11am till 7pm..that's gonna be quite fun since it's during the lunch period where guest usually give more tips??
anyways..i just want get another hp for myself after my 6230i was stolen.. =(
k750i is my next target and this time i wouldn't be negligent with it..

as for now, i need to get some sleep for tmr's lectures starting at 8am!
barney's asleep already so i'm going in to join her..yawnn..nitey!

thigns that i nid

2005-11-21T19:09:00.000-08:00

things that i nid/want not in order
: XXLmascara
: eyeliner
: clutch bag
: manicure/pedicure
: eyebrow shaping
: waxing
: that santa claus kind wear outfit( catch that advertisment about the many santa claus and one woman drop from the chimney) hahas
: hairdo
: wallet
: many many more..

update next time....!

yippee!

2005-11-21T19:02:00.000-08:00

I cant believe my Os are over. Man, it's really getting something heavy off my shoulders. There's so many things im going to do after my last paper tommorrow
counting down 8 days to prom!
(tue) 22nd: last paper, hasina's place, bbq
(wed) 23th: treasure hunt at daphne's place + cuzzie's place
(thur) 24th: PSLE release of results day( with cousins)+ victoria secret(lingerines) OR day out with cousins at K or bowling.
(fri) 25th: Day out with my Harney( will change if hair appointment clashes)
(sat) 26th: town with fish
(sun)27th: some things may shift to this day.

(mon) 28th: Facial
(tue) 29th: adam and amal's bbq?? or last min shopping
(wed) 30th: PRom! hair style + whatever adjustments.

so when should i dye my hair?
hmmm...
i have no idea, but it would be before i do my hair treatment, i think.

god, money money please.

Roxy outlets, sentosa waitress?

hahas.

off to serious work
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amnesia spells trouble.
and im caught dead in it.

a million thousand apologies.

Rugby for life..

2005-11-19T01:15:00.000-08:00

we're the champions!
TP Titans..wad a season we had..
beating every poly and ITE..
feels so unbelievable the moment the final whistle blew this afternoon..

we went through everything as a team and became champions as a team..

next year's gonna much tougher, and i'll definitely work harder for it !

(" ,)

rugby for life..

kill history !

2005-11-18T01:00:00.000-08:00

darling gina's history paper is on tmr..

wish her all the best for it..

will bai bai for her tmr morning before going off to school at 9..

just came back from kopi session with papa and both my korkors..

meanwhile gina called me but i was rushing off into the car..

felt really bad when i had to tell her that i'll call her back later when she just called..

it was a last minute decision by my korkor to go out or else i'll have been chatting with her all the way till now..so now i'm back, but couldn't get gina to pick my call..most probably she's sleeping already..i wanted her to get more rest for tmr's tiring HIS(Mao Ze Dong)STORY..

oh and btw, my darling is msging too much !

gonna cut down on msges to her i guess..afterall it takes 2 hands to clap..

dun receive msg = no need bother to reply.

either that or i just say "dun reply, save sms" at the end of every msg i send her while thinking of her..muahaha..

i'm off to dreamland..! need to wake gina up tmr at 6am somemore..

gudnite people~!

exams

2005-11-16T00:02:00.000-08:00

Basically what can i say on this? Since it's all over, i wouldn't want to brood about it anymore.
How many of you can survive without your handphone btw? i think i cant, during this Os period, i think my bills is going mad like at least 80. I msged around 1000 sms this month. Imagine life without ur hp, the world will slowed down huh?
loading some songs into b's mp3.

im so shagged.

sure bo?happy six months!

2005-11-05T18:15:00.000-08:00

elo !
it's now my breaktime and i came to peek at that bunny's entry..
had some rice and tofu just now..
wasn't very hungry cos of my rather heavy chicken chop lunch..

hmmm..happy six months with my lao niang!
it's also a personal achievement for me seh.."sure bo?"( bunny's favourite and adorable phrase.)either that or "serious bo?"..
nah.."SONG BO?!"
see how adorable she is when she's being naughty?damn adorable!

anyway, ya yesterday i gave her a surprise a visit around 2am..it was our 6th month celebration meal..i can't let my dearest bunny go hungry..no matter how much she wanna diet, i'll just pop by to tempt her with yummy yummy food !muhahahha.. =P
i've to admit that running to her place in the middle of the night was no joke..sweat like it was raining cos i was drenched..considering i had to walk back after that..hmmm..luckily got my pratas to keep encouraging me..kept thinking how i'm gonna finish them once i got home..
ALSO..how can i forget my lao niang stayed up, even after glupping down the pizza i got for her, just to talk me home..(scared some gals kidnap me??)
but it was nice thoough..it felt so peaceful..and i enjoyed the chatting with her all the way home..

arrrh............time's up!

gonna get back to work..sigh..i miss my gina..soooo bad.!
take care dear..study hard..muAh~

6 months ani

2005-11-05T13:11:00.000-08:00

wowee, its been 6 months. One of an achievement in my life....
happy 6 months anniversary!
Hunny actually chatted with me on msn around 1am, then i told him my house got famine, suddenly no food.
A while later, he said BRB, i was typing my history 1911 revolution note on d com, waited and thought he had a bath, left a msg in msn that i left, and will call him in my room.
He did not picked up the phone after i dialled, so i went to sleep.
After that i dozed off, 3 mins later, he called and said he was downstairs, tell me to open the door.
Crept tip-toe into the living room, opened the door, hehe and GULPED! ive got my sUPPER! From 7-11, haha microwaved food, but nice. Ate my pizza and brushed my teeth, called him up and "sent him home"( talking on the fone till he reached home), man he was panting like crazy.
Woah, so many kinds of food he bought, got prata telor n prata kosong, pizza, sandwich and a bottle of frappuccino(starbucks), forced him to take his prata home and share with his bro, while the sandwich and frappuccino became my breakfast for today. OBVIOUSLY,IVY ATE TOO! so i gave her and jeanie half a piece. haha, yummy breakfast.
now im studying about the reasons for communist victory which is driving me nuts, i'll tell u after Os, the first subject i will forget everything will be history cause it's so boring.
now let me revise what i learnt just now.
nationalists weaknesses
- never make reforms
- did not manage to wipe out communists
- did not defeat japanese
- corruption and no efficiency
- loss of american support
- tactical errors
- commitment of the toops wasn't strong

communists strengths
-commmitment to their cause
-fighting the jap
-tactical superiority
-access to weapons and ammunitions
- peasant support
- introducing reforms

haha obviously i cheated, i typed and looked at the book. haha.

ok, got to go and memorise the china under mao..
2 more days left. wtf wtf wtf.
eh no, ahah someone told me im a girl, i should use lesser vulagarities.
haha step, ok la, i promise when the need arises then i use lor.
haa anyway alot of ahbengs and lians use them so daily as if using proverbs.
its not cool to swear.
ok i'll control.
soemone tell me how to improve my english, sms me pleaseeee!

haa jeanie wanted to put our clothes for auction, asked dad's for his visa number then he go fake fake and anyhow say, make her bloody pissed.
Oh yeah her gucci wallet rocks.
lol, my auntie always say guggi instead of gucci.

the great leap forward, the cultural revolution................................

im so wana do well, im good im good without you.
ily hunny.
the juliana theory
august in bethany

oh well..unlucky me!

2005-11-01T03:15:00.000-08:00

sigh..some fucker came and stole my bag..
hp, wallet and clothings went missing..
was at rugby training..then around 5pm we had a break..
wanted to call darling, but too late..was called to 'fall in!'
then put my hp back..next thing i knew, around 6.50pm i went to check my hp..
GONE!
search everywhere only to find out from a sercurity guard that a bag was reported found..
turns out the bloody fucking thief only targeted my hp..
worse, i found my wallet inside with no IC..
arse luck..of all the bag placed on the running track, the thief chose mine..
weirdo..stole my bag, my friend's jeans, and another friend's t shirt..

wad the fuck?he no clothes and hp meh?
only had link from some gals that they saw a guy in red running past very quickly around the area..
how to chase..but me and about half of my team ran to every bus stop in TP.
hoping the thief had to take a bus..imagine if we really found the thief, i guess he'll be better off dead..considering the rugby guys in my team are like 3 times BIGGER than me..??strength wise..no need to say liao..

still..it was to no avail..
now i'm in deep shit..IC and hp lost..make a police report with my friend and was asked to go home..
wad to do..unless i go ask every hp shop in tampines or bedok see if anyone sold my hp there?but i guess the thief would rather use my hp instead..afterall, it's so new?

anyway..came back and couldn't even contact my bunny..no house phone and i'm home alone..tried msging u with my old hp and it worked..but in the end, i was disconnected by my mum JUST TODAY..how..i miss my darling..i'll call u first thing tmr at some payphone or wad..
nothing can be worse than not being able to hear ur sweet voice before i sleep tonight..really nothing..sigh..i miss u~

bad news

2005-10-31T23:08:00.000-08:00

aww hun lost his N6230i and his Ic, his friend lost k700i, pants/pen? and his shirt. (blur conversation with him on his other friend's fone)
hun's fone is only 3 weeks old.DUH!
it was during his rubgy practise.
lucky got pin code.
hey check this out.
www.zoukout.com

if only i was 18, ahhaa.. waited so long to be 16, to be able to watch NC16 then now like no big deal. lol...

every moment spent with u, is a moment i treasure..

2005-10-30T04:15:00.000-08:00

hey it's alright sweetie..

like wad i told u before, i can't promise u forever, neither can i change the past.

in fact no one can..

yes,

it was not right for me to have wanted u to be mine..

not that i've never thought of the day coming and u'll suffer the set back of being labelled a 'backstabber'.

i knew, yet i still went all out for u..

why why why..

i can't explain it..

now that my mistakes have brought me my consequences, i've to accept it.

as the saying goes..a friend in need is a friend indeed.

she needs ur help now, so go along and help her.

whether our one month's pact can make it or not, it's won't matter anymore.

it's still gonna happen sooner or later.

i'm merely saying this with an open mind, i dun beg for sympathy nor forgiveness.

if u know me well enough, i'm someone who detests people with this kind of behaviour.

at this age we dun deserve to be in this kind of situation, we're supposed to live a student's life, so does ur friend.

no one should be deprived of that.

when u had the boyfriend, u were supposed to lose a friend.

but now that u look at it, u've lost 2 friends, not just 1..

wad happened to us at the expense of ur friend's happiness has the words 'morally not right' written all over it.

the key to my heart was always with u, cos i didn't want u be locked up.

instead u could walk in and out as u wish, u've the freedom, so follow ur heart..

but i believe in being optimistic when faced with an obstacle..

for short, it means i dun wanna lose u..

hmmm..we still do have something in common though..

neither did i think we'd come this far..

half a year is no joke, even couples who see each other every single day can break up, wad more for us?

i've got work and i neglect u..
i call u first thing in the morning when i wake up without brushing my teeth..
i miss ur calls..
i forget to call u once i get home..
i force u to have ur meals on time..
i get jealous when u bring a guy home to study..
once my school reopens i'll be busy with school..
and many many more..

i've enough negative points to make any girlfriend runaway from her boyfriend..

yet u stayed for almost 6 months..

i never once blamed nor intended to blame anyone for my any of my happenings.

in the first place, if it wasn't for ur friend, we wouldn't have met.

she did the hardest job to bring us together, wad more can i ask for..?

i guess that's it..i'll have to end my entry here..this should the longest entry i've ever written..but somehow i just couldn't sleep after u put down on me so i came on to blog..for the past 2 hours i kept thinking and remembering stuffs be it good, bad or even funny..as for our 23 days pact, i'll do my best to fufil it..

we'll put our relationship aside..

whether u treat me as ur boyfriend, friend, godbrother or just a stranger, i still want u to do well in ur exams..

dun just do it for anyone, but also do it for urself.

no one owes u a living, u'll need to stand up on ur own!

C'MON, prove that u're Gina Poa Jie Wei..!

i hope u can do me a favour by keeping me informed about ur naughty little nose whether the doctor says it requires surgery or if it's just a minor problem..and looking back, i seriously miss the times i used to go 405 just to watch u at tkd and irritating haomeili de ivy with u..sigh..

050505` those were the days.......... =))

(hope u'll like the song i added)

Os.

2005-10-29T23:20:00.000-07:00

Recently been studying for more or less. Not much of a mood to really blog, i just dunno why, the feeling is gone. Some faded feelings...i asked for one month break of study break.
It's going 6 months soon. Half a year. Man, i never thought i would go this far.
Next friday, im going kk hospital, another surgery i guess. *bless that i won't die before i take my Os. haha, anws i have decided i would continue taekwondo, because i misssss taekwondo. I hate slacking on saturday because i used to go for training on sat. Man, those sparring, aerobics, friends there, music, pattern... for all, i miss them. Memories, from white belt to black. haha, anws i still cant fight, my mom says that im a piece of tofu, easily beaten. Spex competition is around december, the time im rejoining tkd. I cant fight in that case, oh man, i want a silver medal.haha..

hey, this actually reminds me of kin. haha a tkd trainer i used to fell for. haha i think a really short period of puppy love. lol, why? because he lets us slack alot and haha joke around.
currently working at marine parade- 77th street, interested go and see. lol. he's not part timer, shall not tell u the rank. ahah. he owes me a present and allows me to pick at 77th street.lol. he's gonnna be broke...hehe.

I hope tommorrow i can do more studies. hopefully with kai xiang we can study some humans huh, haha but im pretty sure tmr we will be slacking. Free flow of drinks at kallang, means i have to go pee like always?i can drink alot of water..

Not much in the mood to blog, like i said. my greatest regret in this world is to backstab my friend. im serious, thinking back, i shouldn't have done it.
Hunny, dun blame her ok. I got to learn how to be more hard-hearted. She suffers alot that i cant help much to help her stand up again. Love is so confusing. DOn't ask me why what when how..!!@$%%^^&&**((_ pmsing period.

i bathed, brushed my teeth and kissed u gudnite..

2005-10-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

gina darling, old fish and i went to some unknown guy's chalet today!

listen carefully..

the guy is..........old fish's primary schoolmate's friend's friend. ( -_-")

FACT: they only met ONCE at the airport when old fish was with gina and the guy initiated the conversation, conveniently exchanged numbers with that old fish.

FICTION: the guy is from Temasek Primary(that's where old fish and i came from.) and they know each other since primary school..(that's wad it sounded like though.)

happy birthday chalet also die die must call that old fish along..

she being so 'clever', guessed he had something up his sleeves..

so..'clever' old fish decided to ask my girlfriend along..

hmmm..let's see..how 'clever' she can get..

either she wants someone to protect her OR she wants someone to get into trouble WITH HER.

so i took leave from work to go with them.

turned out we were the roses among the torns who were made up of the guy's schoolmates.

old fish bought him a cup with his name on it.

the guy bought old fish a soft toy flower with a bee on it.

lets see where's the link here..

both presents were bought from the same building
the guy's present to old fish was seen by us before she bought him the cup.

it was rather ironic for a birthday boy to buy a gift for that one special friend, old fish. sentimental i guess?ahhahaha..
and it was really funny when gina darling and i stood up and on came old fish running and pulling gina's hand along..
we left without a word. COOL.

wonder wad he'll think of us now..
but he was ultimately a bad host cos we weren't enjoying ourselves and were so uncomfortable being asked to sit next to burning charcoal?

then my lao niang had to eat cos she was hungry.
no bbq in the end, but we had yummy burger king.
weee~ filled ourselves well enough and headed for home sweet home.

no doubt it was a nice day spent with my baby.
after missing each other for so long, we finally enjoyed ourselves today.
now i'm missing her badly again..!arrrhhh
slightly hungry too leh..sigh.. =P

gudnite everyone!

darling, here i come into dreamland!

coffee is bad

2005-10-23T03:25:00.000-07:00

i had coffee in the afternoon yesterday. Nescafe. I regretted. Because i sleep at 5am last night, woke up near 1pm today, i am feeling so restless now, no strength to do anything. Watched tv so long, got to go granny's for dinner.Friedrice, my mouth's watering. Recently, i feel that i didn't study as much as i did in the prelims. What the hell, i studied like fuck that, in the end, i didn't do well, my efforts washed down the drain. 2 more weeks and i can really panic but couldn't get myself to start work.

Picked up a magazine, about marketing in my sis's bag. So cool, but all the jobs didn't keep my interest for long. I guess my ambition still remain the same.
in rank:
1) air stewardess ( not possible)
im still hoping for it thou..
2) hotel manager
3) marine time engine work.

gtg
beye

fatty fatty pic pic..

2005-10-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

wowowowow..

so many many pics eh?coool..

hah~ those pics bring back lots of fond memories for my gina darling who's studying like siao now for the big donut levels..-pass it and u'll get the cert to sell donuts everywhere in singapore..gagaggaaa...

went for rugby training like 4 days in a row and now my leg's killing me!

feels like a sprain but it's not a sprain, looks like it's normal but it's not normal..

all because of the first rugby match i'll playing tmr!!

muhaha can't wait seh..train so long just for those few days of competition..

though it's a friendly, when u're on the field..sorry ah, no such thing as 'friendly' liao..all crazy crazy..see only wack! mailto:#&^@#$%)&$#%^#$#@#$%@&

hope some tiger balm will the trick..applying it right now..can afford to bring the injury into the game tmr le..

hmmm..work has been alright lately..seems like my manager still doesn't know i fake sick so many times le..then slack alot..for those peeps who love rain out there do help me pray for rain everyday!

rain = rest under shelter = no work but get paid = gooooooooood

but then i also miss someone badly..

*("v")*ginapoajiewei*("v")*

hope to be able to help her though these stressful months..big donut is no joke..looking back at my time, i fucking studied like nobody's business only to get a lousy but passable score..heh..

i may have disappointed everyone..but at the kind of situation i was in, it was a study like hell or just fail like heaven..i chose hell..and i planted myself into TP where gina's younger sis calls it TUA PUI POLYTECHNIC for tua puis(obese people)..slap her sia..

MORALE OF THE STORY: dun give up. no matter how much u dislike the subject, u've to study it. think of how much u can enjoy after Os.

EQUATION: study now + less outings + less fun + less freedom = do well for Os + enjoy urself like crazy + no need to worry about failing cos u've done ur best at revision.

that's all for tonight folks! byee~!

ily darling..baoz

some photos

2005-10-21T00:59:00.000-07:00

my tkd mate. Yiwen, quick get ur referee cert. Then next time i get my first dun, then u just let me pass lah. ahha

he rawks the class chairman in sec one. haha i rmb first camp he freaked out when we goona do the abseiling, in the end i had to start first. haha

the guai-est brother of all. he rawks. he motivates me. hugs and kisses.!

my baobei lena. i looked freakyy..

our class cutie and sab on stage..

my cock mate. always siao about rubbish i speak. hyper. but always leave without a word.

that friday...

so tall....! haha. i put wet hands on him..

sec 2 bro till now. so nice and caring always. liked him in sec 3. aha

the babe of 4/1...

salman fish. always pull my hair and ka chiow me. quite nice. sumtimes!

my bro had flour on his face/ haha joe!

rahim,too bad, im talleR!

mdm seow rules..

glennbro. quite alike! haha

abdillah bro. only malay bro in my class. haha last time me and him chat about amal..

kind and nice. sumtimes havoc. ss top scorer! ahbeng

me elim joe!

me.. i don't know when i had this pic.. ahha in my fone very long already

love him. he's my second darling.

arms around him, cos he's soooo cute..

my bdae...

summore pics! haven update ...

sch

2005-10-21T00:30:00.000-07:00

Sch had ended, but i still went to sch from tue to thurs.I'm going facial with mie, and fish at bugis tmr. Fish constantly nag me to cut from the yellow pages, yeah so going to try out tommorrow.If it's good, i will recommend on my blog ok?

Been revising social studies from last fri till today. Left a few more chapters and i can end the revision of mr azahar's subject, which is highly impossible. I don't know where i put my maths worksheets, god damn it, i haven practise maths so long already.

It's so nice to receive dedications, goodnite msges and friends who constantly says imy or ily before u sleep. You will get extremely sweet dreams. haha k, what the hell,am i gonna blog..
Are virgo-ians always sour over things?

Happy birthday xin ting~

I hope i don't get screwed by the pract today. I felt so helpless when i didn't know how to set the phy ramp thingy, so decided to take a look around. ahha That's what mr lee always taught us.
I have not bought any gown, but i think i gonna wear that one hun bot for me in thai, and i prolly get loan of heels from michelle auntie. Oh yes, she taught me cha cha, haha but i failed miserably in those dance steps.Well,i hope there's dance, but again no? I don't want to be left alone cause i don't know how to dance. I guess accessories i have to buy my own, cause i don't think my sis gona lend me? yeah as usual, i don't like the feeling she always scream her head off at me when i borrow her stuffs, and sumtimes in front of my friends, freaking paiseh.

Gonna be six months soon?
I know i am not pretty, just don't say it out.

sister loves you forever.

love

2005-10-17T00:58:00.000-07:00

whats love?
It means willing to wait for each other?
I can't believe one guy actually waited for me one whole year in sec one.
anws, imiss sch, like real bad.
grr.
i love you baby.

i've got the 'i wanna blog' face..see.. ( @_@ )

2005-10-14T01:00:00.000-07:00

yay!..i signed a contract with starhub and change my hp looooooo..

can throw away the 6610 le..

muhahah~

hmmm..past few days was tiring..work, go home, sleep, wake up, bathe, change, go work and so the cycle continues.....

dun time to even see the naughty gal living in bedok south..

sigh..and so i'm missing her a little more than alot..

but it's better for her though..sch books piling over her in my absence?

hopefully i'll get the chance to sent her to sch tmr..

dear, tell papar tmr my turn!

all right..promised the fierce tigeress over at bedok south that i'll sleep at 12.30am..better go now..

btw, for those who are gonna graduate from bgss tmr..happy graduation..

it'll definitely won't be 'happy', but

hey..it's wad u guys went to bgss for in the first place..

STUDY and GRADUATE with an O LEVEL CERT.?

so look ahead and aim.

it's part and parcel of life..

it's gonna be a beginning of new friendships after that..

u all can always go back to bgss to see ur teachers and the sch buildings right?

just like me..

heh` (" ,)

gdnite..and muarcks to u darling..ily

last day of sch?

2005-10-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the last day of school and i'm having mixed feelings.
Sad, and excited. Excited for seeing many faces together.Sad of course,leaving Bgss with memories. I guess secondary school life is the most memorable life of all. We got our class photos, everyone was present.How cool, the first time in my 4 years of secondary life.We got our photos signed with everyone's last note. And i got my Pe shirt signed on too.

How i miss those fun-o'l days, from sch(PAC, bball court and almost everywhere). I miss those Bbqs held during the holidays. I guess tmr atmosphere would be quite sad. I bet many like me would be crying buckets.
First time i started singing some sad memorable songs while bathing. Reminds me of those days at my old house, soaking and njoying life in the bathtub, 30 mins later, mommy knocking on the bathroom door to hear me dozing off? hah

Mdm seow maybe transferring school, miss her so much, I remember at the beginning of Sec four, tng wana send me home for dying my hair, mdm seow tell me hack care him. haha. nice motherly teacher,love her so much.We created a board of notices for her, our wishes for her.
I also wrote to mdm tay, mr azahar,ms tracy chua,mr lee cheng soon, ms tan geok choo, favien, kairen, hanny, bryan, lena,chengyee and junjie.

We gonna get on with the next part of our life. So whats' my route? I really hope i can get into TP.

as we go on, we remember, all the times we, had together. now's our last chance, come on ever. we will still be, friends forever.

I love bgss.
I dun bear to leave.
To many sweet people that is not leaving with us.
My dear audi, jacky and many more.
I will be back to see you all!

Love'
last day of school soon!
GIna.

5thie month anni!

2005-10-06T19:00:00.000-07:00

05/10/05
nice. It's been 5 months, since i knew you and love you, and now i still do.
=)
sorry i haven been blogging these few days. Sorta banned myself from com.
my results have been sucky and is qualified for only ITE.
which is like so shocking because i really did study and i don't know what happened.
and i screwed them with L1R4 of 29 fucking points.
*prays* i really wana go into tourism and hosp.
i shan blog what i did these few days cos i have forgotten. Hehe.
i rmb nora being a bitch and the fucking librarian in our school.
I hope when i come back for Os, they will be gone for good.
ohhh... 1 more day to dear's birthday.
my sixteen birthday hasn't been sweet, but heh he did celebrate with me.=D
i bot him a nike dry-tee and 555 straw hearts.
Hmm, when should i deliver? haha.
Satie,i can't wait. Queensway, Seoul Garden, neoprints and more time together.
i haven kissed you since you started working. ARhh! haha.
and i can't wait to see you again.
I read from many people's blog, they said that many teachers have been reading pupil's blog lately.
That's quite alright with me, i hope they read my entries and find themselves turnin from demons to angels. esp Nora.
She's a demon. A real bad one.
I gonna miss sch like crazy. Which is next week we are leaving. I missed everything, everythign in bgss.Ex 4/3 vandalise our classroom, ahha which is so cool.
Today we took some pics during Pe. So happy family 4/3. Teeheehe.
Had handball and soccer today, Azleen mistook my leg for the ball and kicked hard on it. And i got a sprain.=(
the girls screaming and sweating like crazy.8 absentees and many weren't for Pe.
malays had to fast.
I realised i have been bitching alot lately in class, idon't talk that much during the previous 3 years in sch, haha.
I miss the good-natured and funny teacher. Mr azahar, the cutie who always make my day. ahah and eden told him that he was horny. Teeehhee.
Some other beloved teachers like mdm seow and mrs wadwanni.
i so gona cryy.

And oh i didn't blog that day i was absent in school.
i went to funeral.Uncle's
the route we took whole day
tenah merah(house)--> serangoon--> short walk with coffin along road-->bus to mandai burryingplace-->i think is simei place( grandma's tablet) uncle's (4,0)beside hers.--> serangoon--> tenah merah.
woah, machiam whole singapore. haha.
i cried when we went madai, everything there was so high tech moving those coffin and all.
The coffin moves along this track and led to a fireplace and evreything is so automatic. I shan say much about it cos it brings tears to my eyes.
I cried until i nosebled and it was so ps to see all my cousins all behaving so curious.

I miss you
Imiss bgss
I miss 4/3
Byut i still hate
N_O_R_A
haha.

i loved you that day, yesterday and today, and nothing more matters.

marmiee!!..i've got the dun wanna work face..

2005-10-05T00:05:00.000-07:00

tell u a secret dear..come nearer..
shhh......yay!!!
happy 5 months and 0 days anniversary darling!
woah so fast seh..5 long months only?!? hehheh..
looking back at the times when we just met..till now..
i'm so bloody lucky hor..

oh it's back to work for me..since it's my holy days now..
gonna earn some money to support the princess yea?
actually she gave me the motivation to work..
was afraid of points deduction by her mamar..

so i've just came back from work..the same old place..
Shangri-Laaaaa Hotel 81..
today was quite okay..just abit not used to standing in the sun all day..
POOLSIDE WAITER..2pm - 10pm..wth..
might as well ask me go swim better..
so blah blah..then i had break at 5..just as i suddenly felt i missed someone so bad..darling princess called !!
had mee rubus for dinner and 2 cups of seasons lemon tea..yumyum..
nothing special happened after that thou..
caught the 10.35pm shutter bus to mrt and chatted with her till i reached home..so nice..she insisted in sending me till my doorstep..
where to find such an adorable gf sia..that's why i'm lucky lo..
guess she must be pretty tired..she snored around 11.45pm?
before that i got an advanced wishing..hah, never felt happier..
alright..i shall stop here..
once again to my sweet lil girl who's sleeping right now.........happy 5 months!
ily..muarcks~

nose menstruation

2005-09-27T23:00:00.000-07:00

had this blooody thang that lasts a week
just had a 30 min bath
( half time taken was due to nosebled)
i bled like crazy.
my hands, body were all covered with blood
washing off with water, then more flows down again.
i was so scared that i cried.
how i wish you were here..
am i dying or sumthing?

prelims

2005-09-26T15:06:00.000-07:00

i seriously screwed my prelims.
i cried when i saw my atrocious results
is that fair, when i studied? and i failed.
i revised my one whole week of holidays, and i still failed so many subjects
uncle just passed away on sunday, and so is hunny's uncle's employee.
life is short.
jean told me to give up my course- tourism and hospitality.
because we might be facing financial problem and that my course is the most exp one.
she wans me to go to Js if i can.
but now with this result? where can i go?
neither Js nor poly.
whyyy is poly soo exp.
i never knew one day i got to worry about money,
and i cried in sch because i wasn't willing to give up my dreams neither.
but i have to.
where can i go now? i need a place to further my studies.

me, me!! i wanna be last..!

2005-09-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

in a few mins darling's birthday is gonna be over..

awww man..

like wad she said in the previous entry, the day was spent at home revising.

i came over with her after her paper today just to be with the birdday gal while she's busy studying..?studying below her block..had a bit of fun in the late afternoon when ivy came home..

needed to sneaked away for awhile to get the present for her..collected the pics i sent for printing in the morning for the photo frame..heh..

wanted to surprise darling so once we went back upstairs after studying, i ran into the toilet to prepare the present..found out the 3R size pic couldn't fit, so i folded the sides and made it fit perfectly..felt a sense of achievement when i made the photo look so nice with it's frame..yay.!

woah her toilet no wind, perspired like crazy while fixing the photo seh..

soon i was done and gave the frame to my lil awaiting princess who became completely stunned..

then it was weee~ happy birdday..!

hmmm..just as everyone fights to be the first, no one bothers to be last..except me..

strangely i prefer it that way, mayb cos it can be remembered longer and it'll be more significant when i tell people,"hey, i wished ______ happy birdday LAST!"

so here i'm now, wishing my darling Gina Poa Jie Wei, a happy and significant sweet sixteen birthday..LAST!!!

~Happy Birdday!!!~ muuarrrckk..baobaaaooss` (" ,) ily

blog. with u. hehe

2005-09-20T20:30:00.000-07:00

here im.. with hunny at my place.
i had bio- i hope i can pass it, but thinking again, i might not.
poa i was treating it like a class assignment, like those everytime u will go " ohh never hand in, wun get scolded rite?" attitude. haha
lena n her D gave me a soap thingy that is like a shape covered in plastic thingy. haha damn cute la. i lovee her.
xinting, elim, sandra and qiu dan gave me a bikini from ( *huns is trying to find the plastic bag)
it's those hawaii flowers in red, pretty colorful. but i really had a phobia to wear it to swim or tan, cuz i have 5 of them all like the whole thing color one.
ive got light green, red, black, white and pink.
so its gonna be the 6th bikini i think. =D
hey fuck check out the lighting fucking scary, hunny was in my room, and ivy told me the lighting was behind him.. lucky he was alright.
dunno why suddenly the two of them beside me now. muhaha.!
chey.!
i saw SPARK in the lighting.!
im so scared.
byebye!
i will take the pics of the gifts.
just hugged him.. hehe.
bye. thansk to all who wished me happy bdae!
it wasnt a really nice one cuz someone passed away sadly. and also i had prelims.
ivy is a irritatin person.
thanks darling, ur gift was the best, a photoframe with u and me!

200989!

2005-09-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

here's my sweet sixteen! in like 2 hours? hehe
hulahula!
haha..
Nc16 movies, here i come.
feels cool being sixteen, and old being one. haha.
15 was nice and now im awaiting for 16!
hehehe,
shit tmr got poa and bio,
gona be screwed.
my lousiest 2 subjects on my birthday.f u c k that.
i wished for 3 wishes, one for my family and one for my friends and using the last wish, i asked for three wishes again. and again and again.
i'm greedy.
p1 maths sucks, p2 maths was better i should say.
i screwed history as usual.
huns, im so happy to spend my sweet sixteen with you..love you.
all bgssians, goodluck for the rest of the exams!
thanks edward for the overseas call for wishing me an earlier bdae.
thanks to fucking nora who sets poa on my bdae.

ah hur! my sixteen bdae!

2005-09-18T18:01:00.000-07:00

ahha not really my birthday yet.
we celebrated ivy's bdae yesterdae.
hers is 17 sept and mine's 3 days after.
jeanie's 10 of oct.
three sisters bdae like so near right. haha
yeah so yeah, went to swensens to buy a 1kg black forest ice cream cake for that bdae brat who wana stay at home to game.
that's what she have been doing, since she entered pyss.
absolutely u couldn't catch her studying at all.
ah hur, talking about the kids
jamie told me experts rank the kids this way
i duno whether issit true anot. haha
1st kid: most clever, dun nid to really study. smartest but quite lazy.
thats jeanie, i bet that theory to her is x10830000909090 true
from the day she entered anglican sec, she never studied.
like those ahlians, break sch rule etc etc. but never commit crimes. ahha
get 11 pnts and enter nyp
pass driving theory like first try? i duno about practical and all, she seems she gng well.
a bf who lives on the other part of singapore? yeah arund pungol? meeting him like almost everyday?
a girl who goes out everyday and always last min revision.
works part time and attends sch but sleeping in class always.
actually gets 2As out of 6 subjects and the rest all Bs.
she actually didnt get a C! wtf wtf anf WTF!
like 0.5 more marks and she could enter NTU? or some university.
ah i mean i really feel happy for her, BUT the point is i study like 1000000X more than her?
and fuck? i get sucky results? FAIr?
2nd kid: the most hardworking, but not independent. always dun think out of the box. ALWays complaining.
thats me! ahha i dun brag about how much i studied, but it's always more than my 2 sisters. =D.teehee
yeah i am not independent AT ALL. i throw all the maths qns to tutors expecting answers from them. and ya i am ranked complaint queen #1 at home. muahha
getting terrible results. bleahs
3rd kid: the one who always blame others for his/her's wrongs. laziest!
haha, IVY that BRAT BLAMES ME FOR EVERYTHING.
LIKE NOT MAKING THE BED WHEN I AM THE LAST TO WAKE UP.??
WHEN SHE'S THE ONE LAZING IN BED WHEN I AM HAVING MY BREAKFAST, REFUSING TO MOVE AN INCH DESPITE MY CONSTANT SCREAMINGS?
OF COURSE, EXPECTING HER TO MAKE THE BED. SINCE SHE'S THE ONE OCCUPYING THE WHOLE ROOM LIKE A BITCH.
yeah, three of us slp in a room. jean's on the bed and me and ivy on mattresses.
if we were to make our bed. it means 5 pilllows, 3 bolsters, 2 sleepings bags and 4 blankets.( just for 3 persons)
yeah i am the one using slping bag to substitute blankets.it's more warming. Try it!
AND YEAH SHE BLAMES MEEE! FOR ALL HER BLOODY WRONGS. ESP WHEN SHE LOSES IN GAMING. FUCK THAT.

the 4th kid: very different from all his/ her siblings.
i can only take dear as the 4th eg.
from jamie, i realised that he's the only one not short/ long-sighted.
zero music talent.
haha i duno, but jamie says complete different.

5th, 6th onwards i have no idea. anws most singaporeans stop at 3 or 4.

yeah, we had real fun. with my favourite cuzzies.mh n yh.besties! haha.
we had a really innocent lucky draw organised by mh and yh.
they wrote like 12 numbers on tiny papers. putting into box and ivy and me having to draw
like eg ivy take first, then me , then her, then me... continue after each of us have 5 slips.
dear didn;t had the chance to participate! LOL.
u know normally lucky draw they have a duplicate copy of the 10 numbers right.
then they will start saying eg " who got the number 5?"
so like the probability of u winning will be lesser.
but mh and yh do it this way.
they looked at the slips u have and hand u the prize that has the number written on it. LOL. really cute way. i was laughing as they hand me the gifts. innocent cuzzies.

ive got gifts like a 2b cartoon pencil, pencil cap, seaweeds(laterate up by the glutton ivy), many many star stickers and haha funny thing like 2 sanitary pantyliners? haha......oh yeah and the best a domino set! ahha
ivy got a cutie piggy bank, hah that spendthift ought to SAVE! she really donates all her $ to the ah pu neh neh mama shop exchanging for junk food. and other gifts like pencil cap, listerine pocket pact( orange flavoured) , a civil defence ball pnt pen

hahah.....funny will load the pics later.
hmm, yeah and we played with dry ice like putting them into water and tada! smoke! hahaa..
so fun but later dad confiscated them. awww always spoilt the atomosphere!.
haha the person didnt gave us knife to cut. so mom passed us a knife something liek butcher one. ahhahaha! chop chop the cake.
the cake was damn damn tasty. all headed for curry mifen except me.
the only sad thing, mum was talking on fone with others and not celebrating with us.
thats why the pics dun have her. im sooooooo disapoointed and sad k
will load the pics later.

gona update nx time. gng go make up and wear those clothiongs that dear bot for me.
dman nice k???!
haha
hot news: ivy's wearing skirt tonight!
gonna snap plenty of pics! ahhaa...
we'ev gng new park hotel.
nice food buffet resturant.

update later. when im back. i gna screw tmr's papers. muhaha wish me luck.
sorrie for typo,. typing at the speed of 190000000 words/ min.hhaha

happy bdae bro fav! hugs and kisses

i'll be here..always!

2005-09-13T02:45:00.000-07:00

darling, i'm here to read ur entry..
i told myself i had to read our blog before leaving no matter how late it was..
gonna wake up at 5.30am tmr..will leave for bangkok by 8am..

i liked the songs u posted.
they all have meaningful lyrics for the one u dedicated it to..
adapted from the 'always' cd i gave u?
glad u're listening to it..many nice songs inside for my bunny.!

dun be sad alright?
i'll only be away for 3 days..thinking back on the previous time i went bangkok, rmb i met u so last min in the morning just to catch a last look at my princess before flying off..u even wrote me a letter to be read on the plane..heh..but i cheated..read it in the 'helicopter' with u..
too bad i can't meet u last min tmr..flight too early le..sob..

u'll be having exams while i'm away..sorry i can't be with u during these stressful times..but my heart will always be with u..through good times and bad, through thick and thin, i'll be there..that's for sure..so study super duper hard and do well for yongyhunny and nanabunny!
when u're tired, rest.
even 5 mins can make a difference..listen to the cd i gave u or the radio..rest the sweet adorable eyes of urs..(" ,)

friends do last forever..dun let the past affect mind-set darling..be optimistic..u'll never know when a real friend will come..10 or 20 years down the road, u might meet them again..whether it's in the same school or workplace..
yes, i dun guarantee all friends will be forever, but some will.
mayb u wouldn't think so now, but soon u'll get to know more friends as u move on in life.
take friendship as wad it is, not how long it'll last.
as long u cherish that someone during the time u were friends, it's good enough.

okay, i'm off to bed. enjoy my dream of u for 2 hour plus better than nothing..hahs..
before i leave u for 3 days, let me have a last nag.
dun stay out too long after school, study more at home, rmb to have ur meals, ,eat more, dun have books piled all over u when it's late, sleep early, DUN FORGET TO BATHE, no soccer-ing downstairs without me, less tv-ing for the next 2 weeks, less computer-ing also!
last but no least, no anyhow-ing!
"i think i anyhow?"
"ya."
gOOdNite gina baby!

TAKE GOOD CARE OF URSELF WHEN I'M AWAY.
I LOVE U..ALWAYS!

songs

2005-09-12T18:22:00.000-07:00

for L
you needed me( anne murray)

i cried a tear, you wiped it dry
i was confused, you cleared my mind
i sold my soul, you brought it back for me.
and held me up and gave me dignity.
somehow you needed me.

chorus
you gave me strength to stand alone again
to face the world out of my own again
you put me high upon a pedestal
so high that i could almost see eternity.
you needed me, you needed me.

and i can't believe it's you
i cant't believe it's true
i needed you and you were there,
and i'll never leave, why shuld i leave?

i'be a fool.
cause i finally found someone who cares.

you held my hands when it was cold
when i was lost, you took me home.
you gave me hope when i was at the end.
and turned my lies into truth again,
you even called me " friend"

chorus
you needed me, you needed me.

-end-

L always been helping me when i was in need.
could you just let me help you when u need me?
just a call will do.

this is for J
abba( chiquitita)

chiquitita, tell me whats wrong
you're enchained by your own sorrow.
in your eyes, there is no hope for tmr.
how i hate to see you like this.
there is no way you can deny it.
i can see that you're so sad, so quiet.

chiquitita, tell me the truth
i m a shoulder you can cry on.
your best friend,im the one you must rely on.
you were always sure of urself.
now i see youve broken a feather.
i hope we cna patch it up together.

chorus
chiquitita, you and i know
how the heartaches come and thye go and the
scars they're leaving
you'll be dancing once again.
and the pain will end.
you will have no time for grieving.
chiquitita, you and i cry.
but the sun is still in the sky.
and shining above you.
let me hear you sing once more.
like you did before.
sing a new song, chiquitita
try once more you did before.
sing a new song, chiquitita.

so the walls came tumbling down.
and your love's a blown out candle.
all is gone, and it seems to hard to handle.
chiquitita, tell me the truth.
thers is no way you can deny it,,
i see that you are oh so sad, so quiet.

chorus
try once once like you did before.
sing a new song, chiquitita.
-end-

try a new song
telling me to tell you that you should forget him and try a new guy?

to darling-OY
if-bread

if a picture paints a thousand words
then why i can't paint you?
the words will never show.
the you ive come to know.

if a face could launch a thousand ships,
then where am i to go
there's no one home but you.
you're all that's left me too./

and when my love for life is running dry.
you come and pour urself on me..

if a man could be two places at one time.
i'd be with you.
tommorrow and today beside you all the way.

if the world should stop revolving spinning slowly/
down to die.
i'd spend the end with you.
and when the world was through.

then one by one the stars would all go out.
then you and i would simply fly away.

lighting flashing into my eyes as i typed.
bye.

friends for life?

2005-09-12T18:15:00.000-07:00

Had practical todae. i don't want to go into details.
Locked up in the hall, i became jamie's councillor.
I really felt that her heart wasn't abit mended. ever since i started with ow yong.
Her love for him is that ever-lasting. from last yr august till now sept. a yr plus.
how could i did this to her? thou ive been guilty ever since jamie's natural smile wasn't there any longer.
she has plastered on a smile which actually her heart denies.
Im a murDERER!

had lunch with her at sumo.
and left for my hse.
laughed and laughed.

Do u believe in things called friends forever?.
i would prolly not.

many atimes, i thought i had a really close gang of friends.
starting from sec 1,
den what happened? the bubble just burst when i was promoted.

i really don't understand. why?
pretty close with wj and mj den suddenly now become like enemies
never hang out with E and XT more than usual.
L? even worse. i rarely sees her in school.
its only either assembly or last time during chinese period.
i miss her so much.
suddenly. ive been thinking,
why the 2 of us have been the best of friends since sec 2.
nicked as the bamboo sisters.
maybe i grew fat thats well the nick was extinct? haha.
yeah.
i really feel sad.
i feel that i dun understand her well enough to be called her best friend.
i am not the early birds to know more happenings around her.
but in my heart, she's really my best friend.

as J favourite phrase.
it's too explicit to be said.

mom always say
there's no such things called friends forever.
yeah look, i proved it.
i betrayed J's trust.
what a friend i have in her.

currently, im observing.
friends who ask me accompany them, i go.
never ask, just leave it.
i shall be alone.

i shouldn't have done it in the first place.

what makes it worse is that.
he's leaving for bangkok.

i need a cry to pour out these pain and guilt.

i've the best darling in the universe..yay! =)

2005-09-10T03:00:00.000-07:00

haaloo..!

ah..i've been ignoring blog recently..had exams last week and finally i'm free on a holiday mood..just hope i dun fail any of my subjects of my holidays are gonna turn into remedial classes..yikes!

hmmm..baby gina has been studying really hard too..only that my misery ended first..heh..dun worry ar..i'll encourage u to work hard..no outings, less chatting, less smsing lo..but if u dare to skip meals, i'm gonna take my helicopter to buy something to fill ur stomach..so better not let me catch u skipping meals!or there'll be no escape for u !

oh her birthday falls on prelims day..sigh..i guess u'll have school books piled all over u that u dun even have the mood eh?but u'll still have prezzies rite?!weee~..that's the best part of a birthday!

i'll be going overseas next week..to bangkok with my uncle..3 long days..by right it should be 'on business'.

but then again..when there's a right,there's always gonna be a left..

so by left, it's 'on shopping spree'.

worse of all, i'll have to be away from my little princess Gina..then i'll get worried every night..whether she's stressed up by the pile of books, or mayb he younger sister is bullying her again..stupid ivy..wanna box her soon..arrhh..wad if darling skips her meals!?gosh..i'm certainly gonna give her a long nag before going..probably can't msg her too many times a day..i want her to concentrate on her school work more..after o levels then can play all she wants..wish the 3 days pass by quickly or i'll end up dead.

cause of death?missing Gina Poa Jie Wei too much..lol..it sounds as though she's a criminal seh..

i'll be back for u dear..dun worry!

woah..i see u've quite a long list of items u wanna get yea?cool..

but i read about the amount or money u're gonna spent on presents for ur friends and me, it doesn't need to cost u $20 to get me a present.

even if it means 1 stick of fishballs like wad u're giving ivy,i wouldn't mind..i want u to know that as long as it's a gift from u, my sweet princess, i'm happy..

moral of te story: buy me fishballs!

money can't buy everything, certainly not sincerity.

i can't speak on behalf of the rest of the people u intend to get a present for, but i'll speak for wad i believe in..and that is the cost of present doesn't matter..at the end of the day, it's the thought that really really counts..

better not be too bothered over these birthdays and stuff..no one would want u to lose focus on ur studies just because u were thinking of wad to get for someone..

yawn..heh actually i haven't slept yet..bunny called my earlier and i woke up..so i decided to blog..wonder if she's able to sleep..always having sleepless nights recently..sigh..howell, i'm gonna catch some sleep now..

goodnite!

(oink oink..bunny when she's alseep..heh`)

i've the best darling in the universe..yay! =)

montonous life

2005-09-08T16:12:00.000-07:00

ive been so slacky to update the pics. sorry everyone. wun be out soon. cuz ivy's using the better computer ever since her eye recovered. damn it. ha i sound so mean.
realising the cycle
wake up-eat-study-bathe-da chang jin(show)-study-eat-bathe-abs-slp

yesterday went jogging with J. from my house(tenah merah mrt there) all the way to u noe the building near pyss? panasonic or sumthing. and vice versa.
tiring shit. haha i wanted to shit before jogging. but cant. then on the way back wanted to shit. but cannot run fast. u noe how irriating that is. Gee. i sound so sick.
mom didn't brought me to do relaxing on my hair. hai. looks like i gona dig my own cash out or a birthdaytreat from auntie?( her daughter calls her mad cow)
guess she wun sponsor that much. it prolly be a 50:50
the pasar malam at bedok was pretty mundane. i rmb how much i loveee to go when i was young. wanting to try out every ride.
there are mani non-authetic roxy. dun buy ok. i admit they look quite real. hehe. and i got so tempted to stop and look at it.

finished my holiday assignment. started on bio revision.
now at hmm.. whre the hell did i stop? ahhur the heart about the valves and the shit pumping thingy that i cannot rmb. Grr.
history,bio, poa, geo(half revised)
phy( left a chapter to be completed)
maths( i duno where i last stop at practices)
ss( not touched at all, well done)

cool, how am i gonna prepare for prelims at this slowcroach rate? gona continue hitting the books real soon.
i have a bad habit of having to snack and study at the same time.
no food no study.
i miss those days mom and dad, me and ivy would go shing song, start to fill the basket with goodies and head to pay at the cashier. then receipts length getting longer.
and the training starts, each of us carrying heavy plastic bags home. machiam weight-lifting.

ohh ohh i almost forgot abt the day out on lena's bdae. to be specified one day earlier.
went kSC to bowl. ang.lena.me.long
my scores for three rounds
60 odd, 105, 50 odd
third, second, last(rank)
scores can vary until like that.
i didn't head town with them. but i went for pool with elim!
balls day hur. bowling and pool. lol
hunny was at inter.small world. and he wana come along.
elim did quite a few jump balls and one actually land out of the table and dropped with a loud bang on the floor. mind you she was at the other end of the table.
macho.
so precogitated to have so many virgos this yr. got to spend a big bomb soon if to add the librans. adding all these exps.
cake for carleen= split each of us at least 6?
favien= at least 8
lena= (5+15)/2
ivy=1 dollar. hehe no lah maybe bring her some fishballs.haha

librans
chengyee= at least 8
jeanie= 10?
darling=20 or more depends on what i fixed my eyes on
not sure yet.... addin more peeps to the list

own wants:
new mascara= 18?
my god damn it levis jeans 593
da chang jin soundtrack?
nike running shoes
nike ankle socks
big jar for my folded hearts.
forever 21 earrings.
more food
and more junks
hee.

happy birthday xinyi!
budden, hun says he prolly leaving tmr to thailand
goans..
howells. not a barricade to further plans due to prelims. so heng.

btw to all.
im not trying to step english or wadsoever, trying to learn more vocabs and put it to good use.
so, if any part i shouldn't be using this or that word or so, pls tell me.
thanks
just an amateur here. =P

grazed knees

2005-09-05T21:39:00.000-07:00

ken sent me 2 nice songs.=)
i couldn;t rmb what i did on fri. perhaps i was idling and watching da chang jin.
i had tkd on sat. before that had tution. did some aerobics and learnt defence.
everyone was gloating at me. when i did my aerobics. fuck.
well my forte lies on kicking the target. hehe.
just then maam alluded that theres gona be demo nx week. if u give me a thousand pence i wun fucking go do it. haha i suck at it.
and dad picked me up and headed to fetch mum.
she was at the other table with her line-dance friends and a guy.
wtf. that guy he look like a bloody gay. lucky mom said his wife was there.
dad looks like hes gona complot a homicide. lol.
we sat at the other table. shared hor fun and iced milo. and left
waited in the car.
he asked me. don't u find mom suspicious?
i was like. had this pent up wrath in me, i was flabbergasted and feeling melancholic.
on the spot. i said. i don't know.
in the car, tuned to 97.6. club hits. dad was dozing off.
i msged rahim and i wept.
darlin was too busy to reply my previous msges, whats more he was at his uncle's house. i didnt wanted to bother him much with my kiddy acts.
am i just thinking much? feeling and acting like a kid. i din noe why i cried. it's really skeptical to see my parents behaving like that.
what if..
they separate?
shd i follow...
dad?
- housing and education not a prob
- food might be a prob

mom
- dishes wiped out everyday.
- attention span is short
-housing might be a prob

argh fuck.
why am i feeling this way?

too apppalled, i thought.i fret more as i looked for my mom. whens she gona leave the god-damn-table and be home with us.
secarastically i msged mom.
" when u gona come. dad's asleep."
her reply:
" kuai hao le.."
( almost done)

ironic shit.

waited for around half an hr. saw 2 ambiguous figs. scrolled down the windows.waved hysterically. put on a compelling smile till i reach home.
god damn it. and i cried in my pillows..

sundae. went to yasmin's god-damn-it big chalet.
i wana book there for holiday next time. (=
the guys bought some snacks and drinks.
oh man i feel like a scrounger. i din paid.
ate and laughed at abdillah's singing and the movie- america( or american's) wedding.
some porno. ken "shoo-ed" a cute gal( yas's cousin) outta. haha. that gal claims that shaman look like taufik. damn cute.
dinner was great. light but tasty. yas's mom simply rocks.
after dinner, we read fhm(me, jamie, ken, shaman, amal)
yas served some milo. ain that gal sweet?
how i wished i could stay over??
anws, dad picked me up from tenah merah. so nice of him
had mom's pizza for supper. splendid!
ps: the pics here next time. i promise

mon:
i didn't catch a wink all night, i supposed.
i am all shagged over,
watched da chang jin
revised history,
darling brought me some to0to0 kuay, octopus and chicken balls and soya bean milk.
kissed him goodbye
he bought me a keychain. that read yongy loves gina.
nice stuff.
it's handmade at the pasar malam.haha i caught it before he did.
single name: 5 bucks
double name: 8 bucks.

had tom yam for dinner, a bar of snickers, 2 octopus balls, a cup of noodles.
fuck i feel like a fat fuck.
haha.
ciao!

darling. happy 4 monthies. thanks for all you did. i love you. i'ma lucky girl (=

views on superstar

2005-09-02T22:43:00.000-07:00

basically this show not really that awesome.
but when i first heard kelvin sang, i know his's the one!
i was right on the spot.!
kelvin. u rawk.!
eh not bad eh me, haha i was pinning all my hopes on him when he first joined superstar.
ahhh muarckkkks!
haha dun jealous muarkkk for u too darling.
kelly dun be too sad. ur voice's nice too. =)
singaporean are not biased afterall!

finally superstar to an end.

drink, drank, drunk?

2005-09-01T02:45:00.000-07:00

"neber close door..?!?!" -_-"

lol..my sweetie bunny cuppy cakey was naughty as usual today !

went to watch the movie drink, drank, drunk with her this afternoon..

when she saw the male star didn't close the door while peeing, she got so excited that she said at a volume of 43252323412 decibels, "ah,never close door!"

then everyone kept silent for 2 seconds before laughing..

hello??we're supposed to keep quiet while watching rite..hee..

well..all i can say is that's my little baby princess..

her laughter is always so sweet to hear..

and that's enough to make me glue her by my side for a looonnggg time..

went back to bgss today for teachers' day celebrations..gave most of my ex-teachers kit kat..

muhaahha..reminding them of the youth days when they gave student tiny chocolates..

so i just wanted to give them a taste of their own chocolates..

mdm seow, mrs yeo, ms tan laughed when i gave them that 'memorable present' seh..

yawn..just finished revising some maths..sleepy..gonna hop into bed and fly to dreamland..

dun wanna make my awaiting princess to wait too long..

actually i miss her too..soo..bye readers!

gdnite to all..and mmuarcck to my darling gina! =P

yeah im a pariah

2005-08-31T21:36:00.000-07:00

firstly i adapted this from someone's friendster( not disclosing his indentity)
"Flipping through our photographs
Missing you is half hidden,
half seenThe winter of last year
We smiled very sweetly
Looking at your weeping face
Saying goodbye to me
Too late to hear it
Youve already gone very far away
Perhaps you have already given up on me
Perhaps it is already too hard to turn back
I know it is me who let it slip
Please give me another reason to say you dont love me
Even if it is that I dont understand
Can you forgive me?
Please dont take separation and treat it as your request
I know the persistence to leave is your excuse for getting hurt
Request you to turn backI will walk with you all along till the end
Even if there is no result
I can bear it
I know your pain
Is the promise I gave
You said you gave me tolerance before
Silence was because of forgiveness
If you have to leave
Request you to remember me
If you are sad
Request you to forget me"

thats real sweet. =)

howells, sch was monotonous today, i was practically counting down for every lesson. shared the cost of flowers for mdm seow, mr azaha and ms tracy chua.
ky,kx and glenn was late today. when kx came into class, he asked whether i missed him anot. i gave him a squinted look, and said yaaa. haha.
he looked like a demented banshee with his specs.haha i kept commenting that he looked like an ahpek. well, heard that he've soreeeyes(woahnicewording)on monday poor thing.
me suddenly felt a sense of antsy when he told me he has almost completed all his revision. wowee hardworking deliquent.
gtg updating later.brb!
ciao ivy's screaming that BITCHHH

tuesday tsk

2005-08-30T21:06:00.000-07:00

monday i din go sch. had a heavy flu. i snacked on famous amos and lots of orange juice. how bad.hah i sleeeppppp alot too.
tue. packed at least half of my table of books. hunny helped me carry home.
we ate at bedok inter, see he kachiow again.

duno why everytime i eat this, then the noodle will land on the table.

sian i read poa. feeling so bored. my eye caught this

hehe this spells F-U-N!

i sprayed out of the window, in the toilet ceiling,
and at ivy.

standing at the window i wanted to shoot at this thing outside

basically a lazy act to spray water for plants.hehe

ivy chased me.

how wet we got the place. duh.hehhe

we ran aloong this corridor. =)

i surrender..! all the runnin actually perms my hair.muhaha

great fun!
darling off to soccer AGAIN>3/
blew a bubble..! bleh

i haven bot any teacher ani pressie muhaa

bgss? quite sad to leave too

2005-08-27T22:36:00.000-07:00

tumbled along some people's blog and feeling ashamed of myself using such simple english despite being 16 soon..
i reckon reading ms rosehana's blog will be a challenge.haha i couldn't understand any of her posts. veri chimmmm!
went thru my sec 3 blog. i sound so cheena aND kiddy.haha
if u guys have forgotten
http://dreamy-biks-gurl.blogspot.com/
this was my second blog out of hmmm my fifth?

http://ginahammie.diaryland.com
my first blog! the most kiddy one.haha
i dun think this one can be viewed anymore.

was talking to huns on the fone, we chatted abt sch.
he said that ms tan g.c hugged him and cried in frnt of him.hah when he said he passed his amaths. lol.
he also hugged mdm seow.
time flies. it's gonna be the last year, another 1 month plus in sch and everything in bgss gonna end for us. we'll be leaving and be more matured. independent and learn how not to be vulnerable.
i cried. i suddenly thought of what mr azahar said that day.
i soo gona miss mdm seow, ms tracy chua, mr azahar, ms michelle tan, the rubbishlamer- mr lee c.s,mdm tay, mdm cheng, mr choo Peng ann, mr robert lee, mrs wadwanni,ms lim( homeecon teacher), mr eguene chua,mrs yeo,(shall update soon)

and so happy to leave behind- ms nora, mr teo, nr david ng, ms ho,mr kua, mr chua( the shorty who always scream and break my eardrums, ain i glad to leave?),(brain clogged, but im sure i will add more)

gotta go! bgss i will miss. eh so step. haha
gina arh english so bad =P

mmmuuaarrcckk~

2005-08-27T18:45:00.000-07:00

wow..whole day today was spent gaming at home..
slept at 4am the night before and woke up at 8am today..amazing seh..
u dun often see me doing that on days where i've got class since i'm more often than not, LATE! lucky TP has a 15 min rule which says one can only be late for the most 15 mins of the lessons..so 8am class, i 8.14am reach = attendance taken..yay
so this morning had breakfast with babar at loti brata shop near my house.
not bad, oily oily kind..can gain weight fast ya?
oh bunny loves to be like me..she woke up late for tuition this morning..
my fault..didn't call her at 10am!ahhh

hunny me was lazy and skipped rugby..thought of spenting time with bunny her but she got alot of hw to do..sobsob
nvm, O level coming soon le..less outing, less chat, less sms..more study!
dun worry, cos chatting and outing this kind of things we can still do after 21st nov..
work hard now, have fun later without any worries..or else wait exams over le u still stress..cos u may feel u didn't put in enough?be a good gal alright..? =P

glad bunny liked the things i added to our blog..mostly learnt from my com lab lessons at sch..
see at least i could apply skills into good use..muhahah
tmr is ur competition!
my little princess here is gonna trash the other 2 gals..punch them hard, kick them where it hurts..hee..i know wad's she's capable of eh..
i'm her punching bag, her hunny, her ahmad..just relax yea?
not sure if u've tkd today..haven msged me since 3pm..must be busy studying..mmuarrcks`
study study study for both of us now..6,7,8 of sept are my exams?!!dieee.. =X

humph..bunny didn't bring baby hunny for ice cream!! cry !!
(hunny puts on an ice cream drop face) no extrim for u!
swensens brings back some memories..our 12 days anniversary i rmb..
my baby bunny is not fat ! she's always beautiful in my eyes..it's true!
and i'm so in love with u!

i'll stand by you..muarckmuarck..

fri

2005-08-27T16:09:00.000-07:00

we had alot of free periods.
mrs wadwanni came in but tell us do self-revision.
glenn taught me mindmaps.
den had english. same old thing. ussr, compre/ summary. boring woman.
den poa that NORA never come! yay! horray.
mr chua came in and asked us to teach pri sch pupils and take a video and we will be paid by him. so cool.
den had mother tongue periods go canteen.
den we had 2 hours before humanities remedials. so me and jamie headed for tm. wanting to go shopping in mind. but guess where we landed.??

10

9

8

7

..
..

1!
haha

yay we landed at swensens

sat inside and watched jamie msging..

waited n waited n waited for soooo long..

that i just wana dig my spoon into my sundae QUICK!

and after 20-30 mins, tada! it came!
mine's on the left(cookie summit), jamie's on the rite( some fruits thingy)

i was fascinated at first. cuz it was soooo big.haha so i ate n ate n ate.
and got sick of it halfway.

jamie was njoying like crazzie..

i realised mine had cookie n cream icecream, real chocolates ball( the brand starting with'm' with no nuts in it), topping cream, chocolate melted waffle and cherry.
yummmy... but when u eat like half glass it's really getting sick of the taste.

jamie said that hers had real fruits like banana, honeydew, and duno what but below had caramel...woooshhwoahhhhhmmmmm!

my end product

jamie's end product

of course jamie won the match( eating finish it). i got KO.
she wanted to eat mine but fear of being fat, haha and i was like hey hello i finish like 3/4 of it? lol..

recommendations from ME!:
either u share cookie summit with a friend/bf or if u can really eat lot. try the fruits one.!
cookie summit:-
fat factor: 5/5
yummy factor:3/5
satisfying factor:4/5

i think i gained 3479379593809kg because of that. ahaahh
it's really fattening n sinful =P, but yummy!
and we went back to sch. i didn't finish my geo n brought home instead.
a day at sch was really tiring. i slept alot.

today. had tution. went home had lunch and here i am.
gng off soon..
and darlin, it's really niceeee our blog are getting but blog more often. haha.
ciao everyone i got to complete that geo n hist.
marcsk muarscks!

tml i am having taekwondo compt national at yishun. everyone good luck for me pls!=)

who let the dawg out. Ho HO. wOFFFFFF.WOFF wofF

nice yummy candy

2005-08-25T18:32:00.000-07:00

lets recall when i had this candy. i ate this before when i "fetch" hunny from the airport. he went to thai that time.
and ivy bot it on err..i think mondae? yah see the pics.!
disgusting one.haa
the brand of this candy liquid is..haha i forgotten
place to buy: candy empire( changi airport terminal 2)

that's it!

the next step is to put it on a rolly lolly! woooshhhawoahhhh

start to lick it....

or u can try this...*sourrr!*

ivy with nostrils open widee...haha grosss...

my tongue.. thou it becomes likdat after u ate it....

but what can i do? im in love with this candy! hahha...savour.

end of candy story.
i got really pissed with the nora.( no bra)
really madafucker. i can see she has given up hopes on those who can't score well.
i hope she really got fired by sch and end up working like a slave. bitch her.
oh forget abt her..hmm. the poa test was ok i think except the whole ctrl a/c i can say byebye to over 10 marks.
i hope i can pass attt leassst one of her test.
ate with hunny. elim and jamie at sumo. sweet memories.
went library. hun was woken up by a librarian cuz he was dozing off at the couch. haha.
i was pissed with someone who broke her promise. nvm i hope u did me good by not letting me copy. i nid that slap in my head to wake me up.
todae mr azahar came in fuming. i told him someone stolen my assessment bk. he seem so shocked. because of that i didn't do one qn and ended up outside the classroom with (39-5 absentees- 4 who brought and did all their ss stuffs). cool eh set another record.
haha nevertheless i finish the qn in before the 2nd bell goes and i've got full marks for it! ahha..first time in my 15(gng on 16) years of life
i really love mr azahar to the CORE. he told us he did this for our sake and have not ever given up hopes on us. i failed his test since sec 1 and woah i relaly never expected that he din gave up on me. YOu rawk. mr azahar.
whoever took my ss bk. watch it. u will get it from me. ahha step.
for bio. i din do my 2.2 section B. told tang about it, she told me to write my name down for detention. as thou i care. so i just write and planning to hand in my 2.2 like tmr? ahha maybe.
oh ya, haha for pe today, we played softball, icenwater, and pepsi cola. ahha so kiddy but fun! lol.
oh i met hunny at the inter after peer tutor( copying of 0.000001 size of wording until i got sick and decided to copy from elim.)
i bought clean and clear face wash as well as pantene leave on hair moisture.
as well as soya bean milk and that 1/3 of it ends up in the plastic bag due to the anyhow tying of the drink.
gtg everyone. ciao. i think it's gona be a sad 16 birthday instead of sweet. i m having prelims on my bdae. thanks ah bgss teachers. best bdae gift ever.

i just wana hold u close, but somehow all i have are dreams of u. till i wait for the day for the courage to say how much i love you. i love you too.

our 112 days together..

2005-08-24T00:15:00.000-07:00

heh heh..yay it's our 112th day together! 050505-240805
been through so much with my hunny bunny..
aiyo..stupid ivy bullying u again..humph..i help u box her..!
dun worry about your competition next week kdear?
have confidence in yourself..no matter wad, i know u're the best!
no to forget u're my baobei princess too!
bu yao qing yi fang qi, fou ze dui bu qi zi ji..!

i missed u so much darling..really hope i can spent my whole day with u tmr..
9 days didn't see u already!~ always been thinking of u at night, and dreaming of u at day..
hmmm..i'm crazy over u..
hee..my baby darling so adorable in the pics..especially on the first pic..lol..
i love that pic..but u know wad?
i love the person in the pic even more!weee~
alright..have a gdnite sweetie..swt dreams..
hmmm..i'm tired..yawn..gonna slp now..see u in dreamland ! mmuuaarrcckks~

"Pan Jie Wei, ni bu yao ku..Wo yong yuan dou hui zai ni shen bian de!"

sat..tkd

2005-08-21T00:47:00.000-07:00

had tution at 11, end at 2 odd. helluva tired.
slacked and went for tkd.
i find myself having no interest, my concentration and stamina span is SHORT
we had to wear two paddings. and is damn heavy.
i couldn't breathe for long. my heart feels as thou pumping at 1000000000 beats/min.
i glared at my opponent. i duno what the fuck she wants.
and ivy..my partner my sis. is a bitch.
she keeps scolding vulgarities whenever i kick her hard
wtf my aiming is getting lousier.
i have absolute 0% faith in the comp nx week.
oh yah. my sweet bro favien msged me. motivation! haha *thanks lots*
dick msged from perth too. how sweet.
kin too.
and of cuz my busy darling.haha.
loading some pics i took todae.
pics of me..
haha..

behind these hazel eyes.

puffffft

my hair looks highlighted.haha.

anyway, suggestions for songs for my blog? tag my board.
thanks.
i love you hunny, dun overwork.
imy, i got lots of movies in my mind.
drink drank drunk--> i love the main actress
must love dogs.--> i do love,haha
and lots more.
poor thing you and ur projects, and dun forget ur maths bk with me, u might nid it on mon.
im slply, i can just kill ivy to vouch that.haha
ciao. nite. love.

busy hunny me..

2005-08-20T21:55:00.000-07:00

boo! little princess..
came to see our new blogskin..wah..bunny make it until so nice..remember the past when we had such a simple blogskin..it was called "harbour" i think..heh..
bunny is at tkd now..but i couldn't meet her..sorry buns..i got 2 big fat project due both on tuesday..WTF..now i only half way though my 1st project..lucky i partner the same fella for both..tmr going his place complete the projects..hoping my burning of daylight oil works..dun follow my footsteps darling!noootiee me..yay..now i busy working on my part of the project..sian..think i'm not gonna sleep..last few days slept only 1 or 2 hours then go school le..stupid project..busy hunny me!!arrhhh..
haiyo!ni kan ar ni..nose bleeding because u dun wanna drink my liang cha!no wonder cannot cure..sob..dear u better go see a doctor..i dun want your nose to bleed.!u're my baby princess..how can i let ur nose bleed and not do anything..dun care..one more time it bleed i'm gonna carry u to bedok polyclinic..lol..it's a bad sign..the nose not supposed to bleed..must be a guai baobao alright?doctor will help my baby..(bunny just called me from tkd)
u ar..make me sad..i hope the bleeding is nothing..i can't imagine myself without u..sigh..i'm going back to project le..meow u..take care ok..hunny loves bunny long!muahmuack..get well soon !!!

town!

2005-08-17T22:01:00.000-07:00

i didn't went down for flag raising, because i sudden had nosebleeding..
arhh...it's the 2316492759386808503 times this yr..
my god..
am i gona die soon?
thanks to the toilet auntie, she helped to keep a look out.haha so nice of her.
den assembly switched with poa. the skit was pretty funny. whole sch laughing at mr's kua bad english.haha. poor thang
sch overall was mundane.
oh yeah and our whole class was going gaga when bugs bunny told us more bt the prom.
i soo cant' wait..
after sch, headed town with fish. we wanted to claim the roxy pencilcase and surfbabe bagggg, but it was all given out. singapore typical like me.muahas.
disappointed we went to eat bk.haha as well ogle at guys.
next we went wisma- topshop. i wana buy a sexy red gals boxer. maybe i shouldn't have bot the levis 593?
i had no money now. and feeling quite stingy tooo.
we went to surfbabe- my fav shop, when i got too EXCITED, fish pulled me out. =*(
i wana work there man. everything in that shop fascinates me. all the sportswear esp.
and i had soo many things to buy..haha
next, we went( not in order), mng,ck,espirit, daniel( i duno whats' the word behind) and yah i cant rmb where.
we were hunting for our gowns.
haha.
the daniel that shop had real nice gowns. give it a try!
but i spotted one i really liked at XXXXXXXXX. dun steal it! ahha..
i hate it if someone really buy the gown i really liked i will goo crazy.haha
fish oso tried some tubes...
haha..
and the pics..? ahha.. sensored..
cool. ciao..

oral

2005-08-16T01:01:00.000-07:00

i've been sick for many days.
skipping my taekwondo.
yeah 28 august, watch me enter the hospital.
ahah craps, yah thats the day im sparring for national.
i'm in grp 140, yeah and i heard that there's only 2 competitors for my weight.
i highly reckon one of them is seeache( i duno how to spel her name). helluva bitch,
and i so sick of her. ahha anyone watch this show(sat, chinese show) abt what this woman has a bra shop yeah the shop owner looks like this spastic bitch.
hah.i'm so mean.back to it, in sch i duno what's wrong with my bro glenn. he seems to have a lil mps, and it's really gettin on my nerves. he din do anything,. but i just cant fucking stand those dry lessons. esp history.( watch my expression whenever mrs wadwanni comes in)
oh i was talking abt being sick.
memory keeps failing me.
yeah so i rotted on sat, except around 8pm i went to grandp hse. sumptous food.
whats the gap getting on with me and my cuzzie? we don't talk nowadays.
on sun, dear came and have a lil crash over . ahah wasn't that late. around 10pm he left.
that's because my attitude grandpa WAS COMPLAINING LIKE A BASTARD.
ohh wadever, im thinking he got to leave soon ya. and dad really gave me a stupid and useless remark.
i've got a feeling that my family will be breaking apart soon.
my mom's engrossed over linedancing and would often stay out till 10pm. she wouldn't do as much housework as before. which is good. can make me look younger.
but the thign is. my dad don't fetch her home? why why why why and why.
gina. always growing up to think that i have a perfect family. my parents don't quarrel.
last time i rmb my dad and mom would hold hands as we strolled to the restaurant near the beach, ivy would just cut in the center.that brat.
now. my dad doesn't look like he care. i duno whats so busy with him. he's always looking at bills.sigh, after that load the com. life just sucks. a boring cycle for him.
i feel like telling mom, look more at ur hub, he might just stray away one day.
ahh. WTF DO I SOUND SO VULNERABLE?
i dun wan my family to break....
ahh too dramatic.let nature takes its course. mom and dad got to sit together and really think hard one day if i suddenly get too emo one day and left.
i've got an A2 for chinese. i dun feel anithing. duno why. except quite shock.nothing interesting abt chinese Os to go gaga abt,
oh yeah i created a song in kamel- my only sunshine. ahha planning to do a nosensical kamel script during the next boring history lesson.
one thing i want to know if i die. when will i appreciate history? ha wtf.
sch's been sucky these few days i feel as thou im dying. nora just continue to teach bricks that doesn;t react. well, a strange mentality she has talking to no response.
arrrhh so fucked up. today i nosebled while bathing.sick grosssss
i've been out of schdule these few days. started to scrape thru phy and bio and abit poa.
another thing, bio pract have been sucky these few times. xt me elim and jamie have to share expt
,imagine how many times, we got to wash and redo. troublemakers.
bgss always have this prob, lack of apparatus.
i joked with jamie on our pract day smuggle in our own testtubes.
oh fuck 12 sept 05' bio/phy pract. since that time i broke the beaker. ihave a phobia of boiling water in beaker.dsigijIDGKJDOJOhdihgidi!!!!!arhhrhhhhhh
arhh. angry.don't know why. it's the time of the month. pardon me.
ciao, thanks ken for the nice chat.
we'll have great fun comparing in auctions.hah hopefully getting my levis 593 by dis wed.cant wait.
HUhihihihseifrhiohH UIHH YIHR I HIHIHRIH DEI HI
i love you dear, miss u like crazy. good luck for ur quiz tmr.

3th month!

2005-08-08T23:32:00.000-07:00

heyhey.
hate it when i have to reblog..grrr...
anws, it's a veri late entry.
lets talk about fri first. i went to meet huns and jireh and elim.
den me and elim got drove of pavallion(issit this word?)
err.. den pissed we went to arcade to vent our frustration. den saw kin.
yay! i can pick my pressie at 77th street...
haha but i decided nt to be mean even though he's a supervisor there.
he nids to live on cigarettes.. that "boy"....
thanks dear for ur rose, lollypop rose as well as the cookie. yummy.
it was quite an enjoying day.
sat i had tkd.nothing special except wingyan gng gaga over some guys.
so nice of her to share her strudel with me (:
arhh national is coming..
shd i go?? it's near prelims..
and i am soo FREAKED out.
maybe gna fight more with ivy...hehe..
i sooo wana get a least a bronzeeeee
dun wana lose face.haha.
oh the best thing on sat! i manage to eat at granny's place. i miss her soup! she can whip many delicious dishes! my fav--> her fried rice
sun. i was a good gal staying at home rotting
mon. sch was pretty ok. got commends that my two ponytails look act cute. ahaha nvm lah long time never tie nx time old already would be worse.
i puked in the mornin cuz i was feeling feverish.
mr tng let me had milo in the canteen (:
i got fucking pissed with the kaixiang. and i felt like squeezing my shoes into his fat arse mouth.
went craazy with my Bennurens.
saw benson. yongchee.jacob.mrs song.
den went to watch charlie and choc factory.
saw daphne and corine. wenjie. liangwei and this guy( i 4got his name but fish told me he's brina's hubby)
the show was quite nice.
also duno why i cried..haha habit.
den went home..
i slept from 3 till 7 odd.!
but den i am still tired.. headache.
oh yah gona update my prints with dear when my scanner is fixed.ciao!
half an hour more to happy 40th birthday to singapore!
i bet edward has forgotten abt it (;
sayooooo

i'm sooo happy

2005-07-21T23:00:00.000-07:00

hey guys.
i think this shit wun come out soon!
haha i am soo happy that my dad got himself another job- engineering
but starting around august
yay!
these few months after his newater project, he oni got his job the housing agent thing,
u all may think that being a housing agent means big money
dammit, u noe i have seen him without pay for like the longest 3, 4 months, but he pays for newspaper advertisment and flyers. all those shit to pay for without given any pay.
uh..
ya. den i rmb few weeks or so. he decided to make some money by fixing broken cupboards and sold them. den our lil 4 room flat was crammed with broken furniture. he told me he got time to fix them, so ya, can make abit money like at least 50-200 for each.
it reeally hurts to see him working so late sometimes but not getting customers and interest for the flats he sold.
and the hp bills of him goes like 100 plus.
not forgetting the bills of ours- mama, me, jeanie, and ivy
four of us adding up shd be around 300 ?
but mine and jeanie's alone around 200.
i got to ctrl!..hha
mr tng gave us this testimonial to write about ur achievements in both academic and cca.
i dun haf any for cca. i seriously joined av club because my mom wants me to. but at least i learn more abt audio shits and photo as well as video photography.
i swear i'll joined canoeing if i was given a choice.
wTF!! hha i am an auerulous person
i am damn jealous of those in dragon boat and canoe in bgss.
so back to it, i began to search for all my certificates i got in all these 4 years.
i flipped thru my dad's
i realised that he got countless of certificates. he's quite a role model to me.
my dad, he does have alot of qualities i din realise all these years.
he's patient, helpful, voluntary, and very determined person, veri filial. quite a indomitable person in my eyes. he also learn to give me more privacy than before, maybe because i've been pretty honest to him.
flaws: quite a prolix person, conservative, dumb( provide loan to people without prompt payment) , i cant think of any now.haha
i think i changed my impression alot about him. =)
he proves to be a good daddy
when i nid help in my studies. he will come in. say nid any help, gal?
when i stay up late to do my late revision. he will tell me not to turn in too late.
he sees me bringing lots of stuffs to sch. he will leave a note. " wake me up so i'll send u to sch tmr" despite him staying up late in the night.
recently, he also asked me whether i nid a ride home or take my own bus
but normally morning i wun nid too much help here and there.
so i'll just take bus with hun
i think cab is more freq. haha.. fuck i mean damn it, i think i took around 8 or 9 times of taxi to sch this yr, wtf!
stupid bus, i hate living here. everything is so dumb here. my neighbours are nt reallie friendly, except the maid. the unit opposite me closes their door 24/7
damn it.
i miss my old neighbours. the 2 cuties.i miss their smiles when i gave them soft toy and candies.
i rmb during xmas, i gave them candy canes.
my bdae, i shared my cake with them.
everyday i played with them.
hai. memories. i wonder if they grew up will they remember me? hopefully.
wow. todae's entry is long.
ok. todae got pe. played handball instead of lacrosse
i prefer playing with the guys
well i think playing with effa, aisha, umi, hasina, yun, sharifa, nadia....and all is not bad afterall.
i took over as the goalkeeper den when i looked at them playing. i thought to myself, wow a game afterall can bring the class nearer, everyone seems so focused and determined to win. exactly the attitude i was looking for. good sportsmenship
peer tutoring for phy sucks. i hope we get a change for the teacher. mr robert lee just copy the ans, then when the bell ring. it just ends. there's nothing to learn.
bio is good i like mdm zakia( spelt correctly?)
shucks. tmr there's oral. god damn it. i always stutter for no good reason.too neurotic.
i am looking forward to tmr. hope it's a colorful day =)
i reallie hope mrs wahwanni( haha) 4get about having test tmr.
i am dead beat.
chiao everyone!
i heard that one hr ago, london was bombed again. i am blessing for peace.

hello,may i speak to ali?

2005-07-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

no ali?admad also can la..hehehe..
wah my lil princess edit our blog..no more white template and we now have a nice rainbow!
jiu shang ni yi ge ba..mmuaarcck!..bu gou zai da gei wo lo.. =P
plus we finally have links so i guess our blog is official publicised
with jie mi nah as the first on the list..lols..

sorry dear, about the complain u wrote on our blog..lao fu was lazy on monday and heaven cried on tuesday and also on wednesday..oh o..lao niang always spanking me..so now she wanna spank me again, i used to it le..!wad to do..i always anyhow make her angri..
but..actually it's because spanking is pampering, scolding is loving!
told u all she pampers me don't believe..hahs..
but i was very punctual today though..so i got points added to my score sheet..
hunny also pampers bunny, but bunny dunno..always say i nagging..last few days i've been nagging her to study..even went over to check on her work personally..BUT...she spent 3 hours edit our blog while she told me she was studying..so clever hor?hmph~
wad a good gal..=) i love the blog, but i love u more!

shucks..i failed my circuit analysis term test..it's something like wad baobao u learn in school..physics..resistors, etc. was complacent when i studied for it..sigh..the rest or the term test pass though..averaging 70 marks..oh ya..my rugby jersey number is 13..couldn't really choose..too bad..but then again, it's actually the position i play that's why i got it..

hmmm..about the small book u gave me..i think u're gonna spank me again!arhh...
haven written anything..put in my cupboard collect dust first hor..hunny's handwriting so untidy..wait i spoilt the book..plus..umm..i'm lazy? =X

okay..i so sticky and smelly after rugby training..u're pompoming while i was blogging..now my turn to go pom!or else u'll spank me and dun want me le?throw me away ar?nnnOO..!cannot k..
wanna know why?cos...
u're my hunny bunny suger puff, yummy yummy yum.
u're my sweetie pie, cuppy cake, gum drop,snoggly snoggly joy.
the apple of my eye, i lob u i lab u i lub u i love u!
muarcks..

sch..wed?

2005-07-20T18:00:00.000-07:00

now you're back hunny
haha
realised we didn't blog? people? ahaha
cuz my heart was following him all the way to thailand mar..
haha....no lah.
its because i wrote all the stuffs from 13/7-17/7 in a book for him..
we made a book to write all our crazy expeditions when gng overseas
so since i was the starter i decided to write my feelings when i am in spore without him.
yup..thanks to lena.the idea she gave.
hunny.
u must be thinkign.
wow finally i touched our blog.haha
and gave it a new skin.
cute ritE? ahha
next time the font put bigger lor people
then u all dun nid to strain ur eyes..
i try to put suitable colors to prevent hurt for your comfort.
hmmm..
sch. what did i did?
ohh ya.. dad chaffeured me to sch for consecutive 3 days ever since hun was back.
it was raining
no i mean mondae, hun was lazy to send me. but later it rained.
todae, drizzling, but later when i got out. it stopped.
haha good try hun. u got me tmr, i promise.
haha
oh ya
i wana say a biggggg sorrry to jamie
i didn't mean to say that abt u.
as in my previous entry. just some pms. sorry?
uh hur.
what was i gng to say..
oh ya.
haha.
gng to be three months anniversary.
i realised we didn't have a big quarrel.
maybe sometimes i got pissed by you, huns.
but everytime u won my heart back,
haha..
okie, ya i recall fixing jamie's spraying thing during history period
it was a bore history core lesson on gorbachev and his reforms- glasnost and err i forgot
because i wasn't 0.0001% interested in it.
its boring. i never learn to like history anyway.
assembly. i caught mrs tang falling asleep.
teachers..haiz.haha cannot blame her maybe she had many lessons just now.
kaixiang was teasing me for tkd in frnt of jiaxuan.
i noe i am not good in that sparring.
haha.
but u noe. i oways resort to low blows.haha
qn!

anyone agree that i shd gib a try for the tkd compt?
give me a tag at my tagboard!

okie i got to run.
my ss sbq and phy undone.
thanks ken for the reminder.
chiao!
bye hunny and all readers.!

smmmuarckkks!

i'll be there for u - bon jovi ( xt and yi li dan's fav!)

hey dear!

2005-07-09T16:30:00.000-07:00

soo sorie ive been ignoring blog again.
haha.
i miss u and ur kisses on muah lips
its a sad thing that i had those mean chappings on them
aww, pain shit.
i just wana touch ur tongue with mine. (=
hmm.. anws, i have been annoyed by someone who keeps trying to be like me.
firstly.
abt abs.
u noe how much i sooo wana get my pacs?
ohh yeah. and there's someone who i don't wana mention.
keep secretly doing abs like me and wana so-call impress a guy
uh hur, *shakes head* there's nothing wrong.
okie, i mean well doing abs is good for health,
i don't wana implying anithing abt copying
but the thing.
the person keeps provoking me that she wana gets them faster than me,
okie i am too laazzyyy to keep up with my abs.
like what my sis said. i am lazy to do it everyday.
thats' mean.
she have the ability to do it everyday. cuz she keeps pushing herself hard.
maybe i got to learn that not-to-get-beaten-by-her attitude. hur?
yeah.
maybe i get pissed alot by this.
because this matters more than anithing- clothes, bags, piercing, shades, shirt for u..
maybe cuz i am more into getting my bods intact,
aha maybe ish ya hur, having a perfect gorgeous body.
toned pacs.
ha
okie.
i noe she wun have the guts to do a tummy piercing like i wan.
okie i wun! haha i bet u are screaming a big "NOOO!" at me.haha
i sooo hate it when she starts to like the same thing as me!
i wun let her love ROXY like i DO
u noe everytime i shop
i am so worried. because if i reallie like something. i am worried she will just come the next day and purchased it likedat leaving regrets in me.
even if she dun like it as much as i DO.
to her, its just for show.
implying that
ohh yeah she got it, she win,

adapted from her blog:
The "snatcher" doesn't really care whether she has it or not but once she sees me having it, she'll be seething with jealousy den she'll wanna get one of those too but people will call her a copycat because i am very gd at publicising wad i got FIRST. It costs lesser den wad she wants or maybe the same.

i am reallie pissed with that,
thats pretty annoying.

but one thing i noe.
she has to go get them for the sake of showing off
so what if i bot later than her?
at least its sumthing i reallie like it?
yarr
and i am thinking hard whats that thing i don't care i have it or not, but if she has i will be jealous?
whats that thing? haha

but i wana thank her for teaching me some languages.

another thing
i noe u love me only..! hahaa...
no matter what she do.
it wun impress u
get ur attention
and later abandon me
yar.
i noe.
i am urs and ur mine..
i love you.

2th month anniversary..yeppie!

2005-07-04T23:40:00.000-07:00

count down..20mins more till 12midnight..
5/7/05..happy 2 months anniversary darling..!
feel so lucky to be loved by my princess chouchou..
though u never fail to nag nag nag nag nag at me..scold me..BITE ME..
but..i still love u!
heh..too bad..bite me somemore still cannot escape out of my tiny little heart..
i locked u in remember?
beat me means u pamper me, scold me means u love me!
wohoo~ love u too..
so sorry ar, that means i'll have to nag nag nag nag nag back at u le lo..
hmmm..i'll never scold u but mayb..bite u can??
ahhaha..anyways..i simply love u more than words..sounds familiar eh?
dun worry, there'll definitely be many more months ahead of us!
so hold on tight and get ready to experience..the love of ur life!
muarrcks !

hey...51th haha

2005-07-04T11:25:00.000-07:00

great imagine..
tmr..
in ..
13 hours time.
our second month anni.
cool???..hheee.. cant thinnk what to buy fer u lei.
and where to celebrate since ur exam end on 4.30.
pasta mania sounds great?
hahas..
oh yeap. i shared cost with jeanie for the escada perfume. u will loveee it!!
each of us paid 60 bucks.
hmm..
yeap i got this from jamie's blog

You are a
protector.
Yes, you don't like to kill people. That goes
against everything you belive in. It's not that
you are a coward, but your ideals and morals
wouldn't allow it. You are the typical hero, do
the righteous things, get the bad guys and do
it all legally. But just because you don't kill
doesn't mean you can't kick ass. And that is
what you do. You use your brain and your
strenght to do honourable deeds and protect
people you know and love. If an evil guy is
going to take over the world soon, it's you who
will get involved. You hate watching innocents
suffer, and love seeing bad people getting what
they deserve. You are probably also happy and
optimistic and work pretty good in groups. And
the friends you usually make are true ones.

Main weapon: Anything at all
Quote: "You only live once, but if
you do it right, once is enough" -Joe
Lewis
Facial expression: Smile

duno what the fuck issit..aha.
i have no bloody idea when the bluetooth is done.
haihai yeap, yesterdae's ah gong bdae.
all my cousins came
my aunts kept askiing abt ur whereabouts
.haha make me soo paiseh.
i told em my mum dun let and he got exam cuming up tmr.
haihai.
okie i nid to go do my everylasting pile of hmwk ya?
darling.. good luck for ur exam this afternoon.
when the qn is hard, think of me,
and the answer will come out easily
. haha. but dun spent too much time thinking of me..haha

when my close friends look at me, they said i look like a freak, and say thats what they love about me.- sandra bullock
grace is not a word used on me -S.b
i cant imagine life without u, helpless - PJWG!

our 50th blog entry..

2005-06-30T21:45:00.000-07:00

hmph..someone very notie ar..so long never blog..?lols..nvm..it's because we've been seeing each other so often that we neglected our poor smelly blog..hee`

wee~..this entry would be our 50th blog entry in our palace and today is our 57 days anniversary of nothing but happiness, 'loveship' and fun times spent together!..i've never thought being with u would make me feel this much in love till i finally am with u..and it's something that will last so long..so long..that makes it never ending..like wad u wrote the love card..from bbq to library and then to chalet and also ESCAPE Theme Park!..hehhehe..rmb all of us wet wet..lols..wow..so many that we can't even remember ourselves..well..all i ever wanted and currently still wanting to do is to make u the happiest, most cheerful and loved princess in the world..a princess that can never be replaced..and i'll definitely give my everything into achieving it for my precious little baobei....YOU..

hmmm..saw wad u typed as your nick..sigh..guess it's back to where we started off remember?with the jie mi nah's madness coming back to haunt our poor tiny loveship..all i can think of now is to simply let her do wadever she wants..let her walk over to the childish thinking side of 'revenge' and dwell there as long as she wants..let her insult me, let her good friends insult me and let whoever she asked to hate me to insult me..but one thing i'll never ever let her do is to insult u..if she does so..then she'll simply have to get it back from me..

i know recently she's trying to spike u in with some shopping..but wad she doesn't know is actually u're not at all affected with her kiddy acts?so wad if she buy the things u like first?it's not about who has it first..instead, it's about who bought it..for u it's always a gift from me..but sadly for her..it's she herself buying it..hahahs..

dun worry dear..u need not protect me, for i'll protect u instead..it's not just a fact, it's the truth..and it started ever since the day i saw u..so i dun feel upset..rmb that i'm always here for u to make your unhappy days happy, and happy days even happier!
don't overwork yourself darling..take a break every 1/2 hour of 1 hour of studying..
hunny will be there for u..right where you are..for u to lean on whenever u need me..
i Love u ! mmmuaarrckk.

as long as the world stands, over loveship never ends..
though we might be far, couples forever is wad we are!

wohoo!

2005-06-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

thanks for gng there and find me..
haha
check out this song..

where you are- jessica simpsons
There are times
I swear I know you're here
When I forget about my fears
Feeling you my dear
Watchin over me
And my hope seeks
What the future will bring
When you wrap me in your wings
And take me:

[Chorus]
Where you are
Where you and I will breathe together
Once again
We'll be dancing in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
And you'll be smilin back at me
Only then will I be free
When I can be
Where you are

And I can see your face
Your kiss I still can taste
Not a memory erased
Oh, I see your star
Shining down on me
And I'd do anything
If I could just
Be right there:

[CHORUS]
Then I will be free
So take me where you are
Now baby there were times when selfishly
I'm wishing that you are here with me
So I can wipe the tears away from your eyes
And make you see
That every night while you are dreamin
I'm here to guard you from a far
And anytime I feel alone
I close my eyes and just be there:
Where you are
Where you and I can breathe together
(and we will breathe together baby)
Once again (oh, we'll be dancing in the moonlight)
We'll be dancin in the moonlight
Just like we used to be
And you'll be smilin back at me
(only then will I be free)
Then I will be free
Baby I still believe
Oh I've got to believe
I will touch you that sweet day
That you take me there
Where you are I still believe
Oh I've got to believe
I will touch you that sweet day
That you take me there
Where you are
Oh where you are
I've got to believe
I'll always be waiting here
That sweet day yeah
Only wanna be where you are I still believe
(",)

Only Heaven Knows..

2005-06-19T03:15:00.000-07:00

She's always on my mind,
from the time I wake up,
till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go,
she's all I know.
And though she's so faraway,
it just keep getting stronger everyday.
And even now she's gone,
I'm holdin on.
So tell me where do I start coz it's breakin my heart,
don't wanna let her go...

Maybe my love will come back someday,
only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find a way,
only hevean knows.
And all I can do is hope and pray,
coz heaven knows.

My friends keeps telling me,
that if you really love her you gotta set her free.
And if she retun in kind,
I know she's mine.
So tell me where do I start coz it's breakin my heart,
don't wanna let her go...

Maybe my love will come back someday,
only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find a way,
only hevean knows.
And all I can do is hope and pray,
coz heaven knows.

Why I live in despair,
coz when why don't we go dreaming
I know she's never there.
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shaking inside.
Why does it hurt me so...

Maybe my love will come back someday,
only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find a way,
only hevean knows.
And all I can do is hope and pray,
coz heaven knows.

i love u baby..

When I Need You..

2005-06-19T03:00:00.000-07:00

When I need you,
Just close my eyes and I'm with you.
And all that I so want to give you,
Its only a heart beat away.

When I need love,
I hold out my hands and I touch love.
I never knew there was so much love,
Keeping me warm night and day.

Miles and miles of empty space inbetween us,
A telephone can't take the place of your smile,
But you know I won't be traveling,
forever,
Its cold out but hold out and do like I do.

When I need you,
Just close my eyes and I'm with you.
And all that I so want to give you,
Its only a heartbeat away.

It's not easy when the road is your driver,
but Honey, that's a heavy load that we bear.
But you know I wont be traveling a,
lifetime,
It's cold out but hold out and do like I do,
When I need you.

When I need love,
I hold out my hands and I touch love.
I never knew there was so much love,
Keeping me warm night and day.

When I need you,
Just close my eyes and I'm with you.
And all that I so want to give you,
Its only a heart beat away.

By Law: Do Not Waste Vinegar.

2005-06-19T02:50:00.000-07:00

hey darling..just came back from coffee with my sibilings..
hmmm..hao la..i know chouchou wang zi today very notie rite..didn't talk to u tonight..
went over to neighbour's place..then came home got nag nag nag nag nag by mama to go pompom..sigh..sorri..made u abuse so much vinegar just now..neighbour stole me, bathroom stole me and my korkor stole me..

hee..but luckily i got my mp3 to replace me during my absence..did u know that uncle policeman came bring me to police station again..offence?making my bunny waste too much vinegar..then fine me $500 for it too..mahaha..i added a few new songs into my mp3 for u to listen..dunno if u'll like them anot..but most of it reflects my everlasting love for u..basically it's to entertain u while u're busy studying lo..cos i know u going to chiong with ur hw during the next few days..jia you ar!..bu yao qing yi fang qi, fou zhe dui bu qi zhi zi, dui bu qi lao gong wo..(" ,)
come to think of it..i haven done my maths finish..but i'm not gonna let u down..i shall be good and stay home tmr to complete it..morning play soccer a bit first..warm up before chionging..heh

my little princess so poor thing..just now see u at tkd get kicked and punched..heartache sia..
now got blue black all over and blister on ur feet somemore..feel like beating up the guy who did this to my baobao..!wait i see u in dreamland that time help u sayang ur injury..hopefully by tmr morning it'll get better..dun move around too much k dear..stay home do ur hw like me!
u must be a good gal rite?notie wait hunny spank spank..

enjoyed the movie we watched today..mad a gas car..hehhe..so adorable..have to wipe away ur tear while watching the show..is ur lips healing properly now?hope the lips balm was effective..i love ur company very much..watching u at tkd was also enjoyable..caught u looking at me ar..!
hahs..even ur madam saw u looking at the fat fat chubby chubby guy sitting there..
alright..it's getting late..i better go meet u in dreamland..then can sayang u longer..if not u painpain and tmr i have to wake up early to play soccer with my korkor..yawn..dunno can wake up a not..rmb not to abuse vinegar too much..cos u're the one and only in my heart..nothing can ever change the way u're to me..so sweet..so loving..so..YOU..i miss u..i miss u..and love u always..mmmuuaahhh ~
btw, the pics u put on ur previous post were nicee..simply love it..made by u mah..nitenite buns!

i'm physically fat, physically fat, physically physically physically fat ! pek pek..

hey some pics for the day at elim's church outing! and etc pics

2005-06-17T17:00:00.000-07:00

alot of us the gals =T

eu the photographer. dont we look like fliming eye 2? in the lift haha

kawaii neh?

img src="http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y265/roxylover88/Picture002.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com">
eu and mi at kfc.. rmb the cute baby i winkin at? haha

romance de arou

mii!!! haha i wished..

my fav, logo

last time at palawan..hehe

i believe one tummy piercing will look good...just one??

now that u got me.dead on e mat

i wonder why our blog fan is crazy over what?

i noe im repeating.hehe cux i am slackign

okie
i feel that these 3 bloody weeks i have been slacking
everyone goes out i follow
in the end i end up with nothign done. nothign achieve
dun feel ani sense of achievement
aim for todae: do finish my pathetic one set of maths
aim of rolemodel: favien ,qiu dan
dear, pls scream at me if i keep slacking.i nid someone to nag at me
oh yeah, pls stop me from gng out too often.
thanks and i lub eu

i just nid to stop slacking.i nid a feel a sense of achievement i nid to cheong...

summary of er 6 days? lol

2005-06-16T13:31:00.000-07:00

err...cant seem to rmb where i stopped.
hehe
fri?
yayayaa my class bbq!
so happy
so fun.
will load the pics later
drank tiger beer, my stout was stolen by a drunkard
i had a green apple vodka delivered over by you!!
den lite some candles, so romantic
the food damn damn nice.!
den the pool session was scary
becoz the 'dare' was veri open.(kai fang)
lucky we won the second round
but i still hope to see glenn kissing zhilong.hehe
but jamie cried, cried, cried
most likely she didnt wan us to try the dare
and hope we won,
den after that, jamie, me , u, glenn, zl, yuan went to see stars and the moon! my favourite
and i swear by the moon and the stars in the sky.
den we took a cabby home
silly me
told the driver
blk18 bedok south
stupid its johnie add
den when we reached, theres dis black cat following u
then we tot that it was scary
and superstitutious-->u
den we helped a lady from indonesia to take a cab
den u went home

sat:
went tution
fhm
went ahma hse
ahma bdae
happy bdae!!
hee den someone cheeky..~
den went home..

sun:
pulau ubin day
i took lots of pics
will load them later
i had great fun
thou it was kampong
so funn
i saw a big ostrich in the head village kampong
but sadly it has to be given to the govt the next day
so heng that we managed to seee it for the last time.
it was indeed an eye opening visit for me
i managed to pluck some "cattail" and few flowers
but unluckily they started to wilt. =(
actually i plan to gib u as a souvenir
haiz
the food there was nice..
i saw a 3-legged dog, so pitiful. feel like hugging it so poor thing
saw alot of wild dogs oso. god they are so damn harmless
den ate some rambutans freshly plucked from aunt swee lee's kampong
saw a well
sadako din climb out
caught cockles
and picked up lots of seashells
hint hint. 2nd month anniversary pressie(additional)
ya den went home
slp a while
valley 8 with eu, willy korkor, nini and ib
fun.~~

mon'-'
did my ss
slacked alil
went tm and orchard
bot mummy a nice guess shirt (60 over bucks)
and 2 pieces of gal boxers
split cost is abt 30 bucks
den i oso bot 2 boxers
will load the pics later.muahaha
bluetooth spoilt so sorry.
eh i saw far east building can do graffiti on the walls, nx time we go do it! hehe.
den met u who sent me home eventually
my oh my..home sweet home

tue:
mama's bdae!!!
she's so cute dun dare to wear the guess shirt
cuz it like those whereby u can see the shoulders.
hehe.
so the 3 beauty(me, nini,mama) dolled up
ib as usual, AH beng wearing not ah lian hor note!
den ya we ate at new park hotel.
sia lah the food damn nice and reasonable
its buffet
each of us like 30+++
but we tried like at least 20 over dishes
wow! my fav.the etako!! served twice
shark fins like thrice?
yums yums
nx time hope we can haf our prom night there, muhaha
bb!

wed:
did hmwk a tiny witty
den went swimming,eu, me, ib, minghui and yonghan!
fun fun
but toturing*somehow u noe wud*winks* haha
silly 60 secs counting down.
lips are chapping thou.haha
had dinner over
crabbies hehe
duno hw to eat.
lol
jking
yums rite?
den sia lah denise neva choose howard.
hehe actually ending expected liao
shan is the best 1!!!!
mi wana vote for eye for a girl
and thats shan!!
hee.okie la.den funnie eh keept turning back to look like me.hahaha.
had a ran home!

ps: will load all pic i owe asap! as fast as the stupid blue tooth works!
tataz!

thur: happybdae to my mother-in-law.haha i sound liike jamie eh? hehe

gal meets boy, boy meets gal. eventually boy kisses the gal. passionately.
i feel like a princess
i had a picture of u in my mind,
believe it or not, i dreamt of me hand in hand with eu. a consective week!!

close to u..

2005-06-16T01:15:00.000-07:00

went swimming with baobao today..!
weee~ had so much fun in the pool ar..
i just wanna be close to u always..i miss playing in the pool with u darling..
ur cousins all so notie notie sia..spank them?
but it felt so different kissing u there sia..but i loved the feeling..really..
hmmm..wonder if u think so too..hheehe`

yay..went to ur place after that to share our dinner AGAIN..rmb last time we shared our dinner plates was when i went to tutor u and jie mi nah?damn nicee!
though i didn't really ate much of the crab but it's just the scene of us eating that makes me smile as i felt so loved..from feeding u 'half' a fishball(one person one half, feeling never part. =P) all the way till learning from u how to eat the crabby's poor little leg properly..wah..i never felt so loved before in my past 16years 8mths 16days..it really makes me wanna treasure u so much so much..that i'd never let u leave me..if only i could make u drink some love potion..to make u love me just as much i love u for a very very very long time..but i won't..cos i wanna make u love me willingly..
i love u for who u are, just the way u are..not the person whom is forced to love me..forced to care for me..forced by this love potion i was talking about..my baby princess..i really mean every word i say..i love u more than words could ever describe..and it's so much, that it's gonna take me a lifetime..just to find out exactly how much i'll love u..
if i was given a wish by god, first, i'll wish for 3 more wishes..for the first wish, i wish to be the one who brings happiness, joy and laughter to u, my gina baobao..second wish is to have a bigger heart that can love u even more..and finally the third wish is to wish for unlimited wishes and make all of them be the same wish that we'll always be together and never apart..!
heh..(" ,)

Gina Poa Jie Wei, u're the sweet little girl i truly love with every single beat..of my tiny heart..

my bunny !

2005-06-11T21:15:00.000-07:00

heee.!! my bunnybunny..i'm ur hunny..and u're my bunny..
sweet adorable lovable bunny of mine..i'm so in love with u..
i loved today..spent time with u in the library?supposed to study, instead..
we play play play never do much..u ar..notie notie..'bunny..turn around..' *spankspank*
too bad u had to go ahma place have dinner..goody..then u can eat eat eat more!!
grow fatter k..hmph..so skinny..dun worry, u're mine mine..all mine!
i'll still love u de..u can't no escape!!
hmmm..oh ya..today someone cheeky ar..lols..shhh..secret..110605 *winkwink*
i was so lousy..sigh..i'll improve de..hahas..
dun ever change the way u're to me..my princess..i lub u bunny!

showering u with all my love every minute, every second..of my life..muarcks~

sweetie..i'm dreaming of u..

2005-06-10T17:30:00.000-07:00

weee...gonna meet u soon!
now waiting for my papa to take me to east coast..
so meanwhile i come blog first..
firstly, happy one month and 5 days anniversary!
mahaha..everyday shall be our anniversary..
anyway, i simply can't wait to spent time with u later!
at the beach somemore..we'll stroll by the beach holding each others' hand till the end of time..
together and never apart we shall be..our heart will always beat as one..!
muarcks..
i'm gonna get changed now..see u !
btw, i like the pics u put on blog..so sweet..ai ni..!

u're my adorable princess and nothing can ever change that!

sch'?

2005-06-09T18:00:00.000-07:00

yup hun hehe shhh dun say bt anything bt sch todae alrite?
since our blog is so famous, i think u get it rite? ehhe
had fun todae, smooochhhess!
i lub eu
okie at library with glenn

everything was fine alrite?
hmm..
u see the time without you?

i felt sick

i felt bored

i felt like hell when everyone starts bullying me

the best time and place to settle?

i felt slply?

woke up to find myself likdat?

how i wish time like this will repeat?

rmbing the time when u were my brother

with now, bubbly days

more ahead of us!
i just love u the way u are..!!
muarcks
looking forward to todae, tmr and e-v-e-r-y- d-a-y!

050605

2005-06-05T20:03:00.000-07:00

our one month anniversary!
i love you so much, thou we just 'celebrate' at starbucks and studied there
i reallie enjoy myself, with you by muah side
sharing a caramel with loads of floats!
hehe..
thanks for the roxy wallet and gigi album
hope u like the reebok cap ya?
i lub them sooo much.
(:
i just love you the way u are..
dun leave my sight ya? i love you..

18 more mins to one month anniversary..

2005-06-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

lub euuuu
had great fun todae at the beach
i bet alot of peeps are envying me! hehe..
heheh todae take so mani pics..choose some okie?
next time den put..muhahah
okie tmr go starbucks arh...seeya..muarcks
turn u on?
shit, i getting turned on by ya.
crious
hehe must stop before something bad happens ya?
muha.
rmb the bra at the bus stop thing? ehhee..!!

i will always love you, i will always nid you, be by my side forever...

huggies !!

2005-06-04T23:01:00.000-07:00

love ur hugs, ur kisses, ur everything..
weeee....!! our one month aniversary is finally coming soon..
well, i know it's not long enough show off..
but we'll definitely have many many more months to come rite?
050605, 050705, 050805, 050905, 051005, 051105, 051205, 050106 and till the end of time.!
muhahas..ur mine mine mine all mine..guess it's no escape for u le?
i guess we've been through alot together..especially during our beginning..
but till the end, we'll have alot more to overcome !
dun quit.!
i love u and happy one month aniversary..in advance!
muarckmuarck...

i'll always love u..i'll always stay true!

yipe!

2005-06-02T23:03:00.000-07:00

4 weeks..!
hmm may seen short to u and cailing.
3 months lei some one
haha..
hmmmm.....
fun yesterdae rite? hehe
i am damn pissed now..
okie..
i juz wana say i love u more than words can say
i look forward to saturday!
pasir ris here i come! muaha
sunday* magic day!
let me take a look at your lil cute face..4 weeks of adoring it

i'll share your sorrows and split your woes..i promise u..

2005-05-31T18:11:00.000-07:00

i wanna wipe away your tears and take your sadness along with it too..
dear dear..dun be upset k..i know it's frustrating when these things happen..but no wad happens u still have me..and that's a promise that can never be broken, a promise made in heaven, from me to u.. (" ,)

really glad that u know i'm not such a person like how your papa mama think..we shouldn't blame them..they're just concerned for u..think of it this way, if they didn't cared for u, if u weren't their daughter, would they even bother?
wad i'm trying to say is that they simply love u as much as i love u too..
no matter wad, your parents are your parents..they only want the best for u rite? trust me, it's a privillege, not a cause of frustation..

alright..dun talk about it le..hope u'll feel much better after read it though..oh o..my notie princess so notie..break beaker today..!
then scalded yourself somemore..make me pain pain..
nvm, when u see me i'll give u the best medicine to cure u of your pain lo..
darling sotong..so careless!
spank spank..da pi gu ! hehehhe..next more careful next time k..
but not to worry..i'm confident u'll do well..cos u're my clever little princess.!

oh ya..u ar..cannot be anyhow..must save it for after marriage.!
not just after 22 or else..'bye bye' ar..kekekkeke..
no la..i mean it about saving it for after marriage..i trust u're sensible enough..hmmm..i'm not that kind of person who love u for your bods..
but u are!! always wanna see my bods..? somemore no pacs de..cannot okays..!! i also saving it for after marriage de..
loLs..hao la hao la..i'm gonna pompom le..blog so long..not enough time sleep le..but nvm cos i'll seeing u later lo..who ask someone miss me and my smile till wanna cry..nvm, i can't wait to see u and your sweet smile too..yay..!
mmmmmuuuuaaarrrrrrccccckkkkkssss........heee..long long one!

wanna know how much do i love u?
well..simply too much that there's not enough time to tell u how much !

practical

2005-05-31T17:33:00.000-07:00

hmm..
i broke the beaker?
yup... shit
its' stupid....careless me!
hmm...dfkjgndsjgnjnghkfxnkgndklfgkdngkedkfngkfkcgnedsjtkhrhgkljjgesk!!!!!!
djgjiesjigjiorjijifjidjgidgijdishpi
dsjghouisdhgtiuohsohidhgiehstgihsitghisehtgihse
dhsoihgipsdhtgieshtgihdoitidshiothsditidhhthtios
arrrghhhhh~~~!!!!!!!!
i duno why!!!!>..
perhaps i am juz angryyy
growl! mama found it! why/??
tell u to take this one u dun wan..
haiz...papa gona nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag at me lor
arrrr...!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i noe u are not the one who loves me for my bods
so i told her mami, i promise i wun gib to him if he wans de, if he reallie loves me, he wun tell me to do that de
i told her i will leave it for marriage? hehe kinda not possible
but not so fast lar! siao...i will consider until im 22?
yup, cux i nnot that anyhow!
star wars is nice.
fuck i am so fucking angry with the fucker--> me!
taekwondo later.
i realllie got no mood
i wana cry cry cry cry cry
why?
cause i miss u and ur

smile (",)

i love you the way u love me..

i dedicate this song to my notie notie princess.!

2005-05-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

i swear by the the moon and the stars in the sky
and i swear like the shadow that's by your side
i see the questions in your eyes
i know what's waiting on your mind
you can be sure i know my part'cause i stand beside you through the years
you'll only cry those happy tears
and though i make mistakes
i'll never break your heart

and i swear by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there
i swear like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there for better or worse
till death do us part
i'll love you with every beat of my heart
and i swear

i'll give you every thing i can
i'll build your dreams with these two hands
we'll hang some memories on the wall
and when (and when) just the two of us are there

you won't have to ask if i still care'cause as the time changes the page
my love won't ever age at all

and i swear (i swear) by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there (i'll be there)
i swear (and i swear) like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there (i'll be there) for better or worse
till death do us part i'll love you with every single beat of my heart
and i swear

and i swear (i swear) by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there (i'll be there)
i swear (and i swear) like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there (i'll be there)for better or worse (better or worse)
till death do us part i'll love you
with every single beat of my heart
i swear i swear i swear..

from the bottom of my heart i sing this song to you..my baby..iloveyou..